Friday, May 21, 2004
Hur Hur... I really want to slim down lah... i am not slim lor... got fats jutting out everywhere =| ......... haiz sadded... as if so easy... i think exercise alone does not help much if i carry on eating like a pig... yah i have to forsake some of my favourite foods... maybe i will just eat air from now on :D... haa haaa
11:14 AM
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
After all...
After all...
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
After all...
After all...
12:20 PM
Monday, May 17, 2004
Just be.....
You can travel the world
But you can't run away
From the person you are in your heart
You can be who you want to be
Make us believe in you
Keep all your light in the dark
Your searching for truth
You must look in the mirror
And make sense of what you can see
Just be
Just be
They say learning to love yourself
Is the first step
But you take what you want to be real
Flying on plains exotic locations
Won't teach you
How you how to feel
Beside the fact
That you are who you are
And nothing can change that believe
Just be
Just be
Cause now I know
Is not so far
To where I go
There's not this spot
Since this I feel
I feel
I need
To just be
Just be
I was lost
And I'm still lost
But I feel so much better
Cause now I know
Is not so far
To were I go
There's not this spot
Since this I feel
I feel
I need
To just be
Just be
You can travel the world
But you can't run away
From the person you are in your heart
You can be who you want to be
Make us believe in you
Keep all your light in the dark
Your searching for truth
You must look in the mirror
And make sense of what you can see
Just be
Just be
They say learning to love yourself
Is the first step
But you take what you want to be real
Flying on plains exotic locations
Won't teach you
How you how to feel
Beside the fact
That you are who you are
And nothing can change that believe
Just be
Just be
Cause now I know
Is not so far
To where I go
There's not this spot
Since this I feel
I feel
I need
To just be
Just be
I was lost
And I'm still lost
But I feel so much better
Cause now I know
Is not so far
To were I go
There's not this spot
Since this I feel
I feel
I need
To just be
Just be
8:55 PM
Boy meets girl
You were my dream, my world
But I was blind
You cheated on me from behind
So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it's true
I'm still in love with you
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me
Day and night
I'm always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know its true
I'm still in love with you
I need a miracle....
Sweet...
You were my dream, my world
But I was blind
You cheated on me from behind
So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it's true
I'm still in love with you
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you'll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me
Day and night
I'm always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know its true
I'm still in love with you
I need a miracle....
Sweet...
8:24 PM
"Misery"
I cry myself to sleep again tonight
'Cause I cannot hold you tight
I wish I could see you again tomorrow
To take all this sorrow, sorrow
I'm hollow
When I touch you
Can you feel it
When I need you
Can you give it
When I look in your eyes
Can you see me
When I fall, fall
Will you catch me, catch me, catch me
Misery is what I feel
When you're not around
So I can't heal
Misery is what I feel
Is what I feel
These tears on my face
Are for you
I wish that I could hold you
Touch you, feel you
My heart is bleeding Can't you see
I wish that you could hold me
Touch me, feel me....
I cry myself to sleep again tonight
'Cause I cannot hold you tight
I wish I could see you again tomorrow
To take all this sorrow, sorrow
I'm hollow
When I touch you
Can you feel it
When I need you
Can you give it
When I look in your eyes
Can you see me
When I fall, fall
Will you catch me, catch me, catch me
Misery is what I feel
When you're not around
So I can't heal
Misery is what I feel
Is what I feel
These tears on my face
Are for you
I wish that I could hold you
Touch you, feel you
My heart is bleeding Can't you see
I wish that you could hold me
Touch me, feel me....
11:25 AM
Hmmm humans are very confusing creatures dun you think so... they may think they know what they want but in the end... they dun really know =p i mean after all i dun blame us... there are so many possibilities... why hold on to one when there are endless of choices around you.....
maybe i was too self indulged in myself and my own feelings to look at the whole picture but you know yesterday night this sudden though hit me... maybe... yah pple are afraid of accepting ......everytime there's this sudden closeness... pple tend to shy away... or basically they just push it away or even more drastic measures like doing the opposite of wat you really wanted.... what for you may asked?
Maybe everybody has been hurt... and sometimes we dun know how to deal with it... the only way we think the solution is ...we try to avoid getting hurt.. maybe that's why.... so many confusion has been placed right before my eyes.... i didn't realised this earlier maybe cos i was too cope up with my own feelings to see the whole truth....
maybe i was too self indulged in myself and my own feelings to look at the whole picture but you know yesterday night this sudden though hit me... maybe... yah pple are afraid of accepting ......everytime there's this sudden closeness... pple tend to shy away... or basically they just push it away or even more drastic measures like doing the opposite of wat you really wanted.... what for you may asked?
Maybe everybody has been hurt... and sometimes we dun know how to deal with it... the only way we think the solution is ...we try to avoid getting hurt.. maybe that's why.... so many confusion has been placed right before my eyes.... i didn't realised this earlier maybe cos i was too cope up with my own feelings to see the whole truth....
11:02 AM
Sunday, May 16, 2004
Heh Heh yah not asleep yet... maybe its the jogging part made me so awake now =P i jogged like 11 km =P haa haa like 4 rounds ard one hour plus... yah lah why i go jog suddenly.. lol maybe media does have a great impact upon us humans... anyway i was watching this show with the babe.... wow she really looks like ELva..except she seems to have a great body.. =P thin yet with curves...envy sia...
Hey i am not all about looks ok.... i mean well if u can be better why not... and I AM DEFINITELY NOT SOME CRAZY GAL CRAZY OVER SHUAI GES OKie "tsk tsk....neo neo LOL".... dunno who implanted that "YANDAO LOVER" to me... HMMph.. I am not so superficial lor "Neo U r not okie... U r my lesbo mate =X" ...even though i do care abt my looks doesn't mean i judge pple by their looks ...i mean what's so wrong with trying to bring the best out in yourself.... doesn't this give you more confidence anyway? =) MAybe HOnggy knows it best lah... he's forever trying to built six packs...HOnggy ah YOur body so nice le still so strict -_-"""
ANyway MY friend ask me to go clubbing tonight woR...there's some great DJ that came to Zouk i think... but i think i am too stoned to be there partying tonight... besides i dun really know his friends and i dun feel so chatty today...LOL perhaps ANother time? =P but you know today while i was jogging... i suddenly remembered the phrase " we earned each day" on the la xiong la MEi on channel 8 last night.....
Maybe i should live each day to the fullest okie... i think i should be more enthu abt life.. and saying yes to outings... if not I am afraid haven play enough one day i may suddenly die... haven show my appreciation to all my loved ones yet... so sadded -_-""... yah as i was runing across the road i got horned by a bike.. maybe that's why suddenly think of death...
Hmm.. i think i learnt to take things easy whatever will be will be =) i mean of course the efforts needed... but if it fails.... It just means there are other things awaiting yah =)i feel so bad... lol most of my friends ask me out i always turn them down.... they must be like haiz... =|ha haa i better change my attitute... Maybe i am lucky to have friends who always get me out of my house =P heh heh Okie enough of crapping =P NiteY!
Hey i am not all about looks ok.... i mean well if u can be better why not... and I AM DEFINITELY NOT SOME CRAZY GAL CRAZY OVER SHUAI GES OKie "tsk tsk....neo neo LOL".... dunno who implanted that "YANDAO LOVER" to me... HMMph.. I am not so superficial lor "Neo U r not okie... U r my lesbo mate =X" ...even though i do care abt my looks doesn't mean i judge pple by their looks ...i mean what's so wrong with trying to bring the best out in yourself.... doesn't this give you more confidence anyway? =) MAybe HOnggy knows it best lah... he's forever trying to built six packs...HOnggy ah YOur body so nice le still so strict -_-"""
ANyway MY friend ask me to go clubbing tonight woR...there's some great DJ that came to Zouk i think... but i think i am too stoned to be there partying tonight... besides i dun really know his friends and i dun feel so chatty today...LOL perhaps ANother time? =P but you know today while i was jogging... i suddenly remembered the phrase " we earned each day" on the la xiong la MEi on channel 8 last night.....
Maybe i should live each day to the fullest okie... i think i should be more enthu abt life.. and saying yes to outings... if not I am afraid haven play enough one day i may suddenly die... haven show my appreciation to all my loved ones yet... so sadded -_-""... yah as i was runing across the road i got horned by a bike.. maybe that's why suddenly think of death...
Hmm.. i think i learnt to take things easy whatever will be will be =) i mean of course the efforts needed... but if it fails.... It just means there are other things awaiting yah =)i feel so bad... lol most of my friends ask me out i always turn them down.... they must be like haiz... =|ha haa i better change my attitute... Maybe i am lucky to have friends who always get me out of my house =P heh heh Okie enough of crapping =P NiteY!
1:22 AM
Friday, May 14, 2004
Was it cos of lonliness...
That led you to me....
Did i seem lonely to you too.....
That's why u appear before me......
I never treated you just like anyone....
Isn't it obvious......
Some things need not be mention......
Cos my actions have proven it all....
Maybe something else held you back....
Maybe you weren't sure.....
Maybe even i was deluded.....
Nothing is forver......
I thought you already knew.....
Sometimes i wish you knew......
what's that about...again...
i dun really know too....
maybe it's the intense feelings i had.....
i really wanted you to know.......
At least you would have known someone is always there for you....
Was it love....it didn't seem so....
but life has always seem better when u were just beside.....
That led you to me....
Did i seem lonely to you too.....
That's why u appear before me......
I never treated you just like anyone....
Isn't it obvious......
Some things need not be mention......
Cos my actions have proven it all....
Maybe something else held you back....
Maybe you weren't sure.....
Maybe even i was deluded.....
Nothing is forver......
I thought you already knew.....
Sometimes i wish you knew......
what's that about...again...
i dun really know too....
maybe it's the intense feelings i had.....
i really wanted you to know.......
At least you would have known someone is always there for you....
Was it love....it didn't seem so....
but life has always seem better when u were just beside.....
9:21 AM
Thursday, May 13, 2004
Yupz.. I met up with my old school sec school classmate yesterday... one from my click rememeber the one who i told you suffer from anorexic... SHE LOOKS SO GREAT NOW! =) I am happy for her because finally see that she see the light and stop that stupid anorexic from destroying her life... I mean everytime i saw her i felt like ... " I hope she will wake up one day.." and it finally happen.. she gain a little weight just at the right places.. at least she got her curves back you know... heh heh we had a great time chit chatting... mainly about our past where the both of us got lost somewhere.... yah i was down with depression that time and it seemed like one yr of my life flew past without me knowing what had really happened.... She was well like sort of in a depressed state as well....
ANyway she told me what she felt of me that time... like i was like over ridden with my own problems that i couldn't seem to care any less about other people... Hearing that i felt kind of bad... I didn't know i was LIke that at that time... =( Anyway I am glad things are so over we both have grown up into mature ladies at least i think so =P At least we both know when the troubles come we are able to handle them and well accept the facts and live with them and you know not like crumble under the circumstances....
I am so glad i met her yesterday...It's been long since we met up for a chat and yesterday we like poured our souls out to each other well... i mean i didn't really poured my soul out but at least i think she gained some advice from me about guys =P not that i am an expert in love or anything but i think my advices on certain issues are worth a thought =P oOOoo....
" I couldn't sleep.... you invaded me once my eyes closed.. "
ANyway she told me what she felt of me that time... like i was like over ridden with my own problems that i couldn't seem to care any less about other people... Hearing that i felt kind of bad... I didn't know i was LIke that at that time... =( Anyway I am glad things are so over we both have grown up into mature ladies at least i think so =P At least we both know when the troubles come we are able to handle them and well accept the facts and live with them and you know not like crumble under the circumstances....
I am so glad i met her yesterday...It's been long since we met up for a chat and yesterday we like poured our souls out to each other well... i mean i didn't really poured my soul out but at least i think she gained some advice from me about guys =P not that i am an expert in love or anything but i think my advices on certain issues are worth a thought =P oOOoo....
" I couldn't sleep.... you invaded me once my eyes closed.. "
8:18 AM
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
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LOL i Guess i am way too bored =) i am going out soon to shOpy for shoes haa haa so that when my job comes i got the proper shoe for it =)
I miss you... I mean it when i say it but do you really mean what you say...
11:49 AM
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Your cruel deep eyes
Your blood like ice
One look could kill
My pain your thrill
I wanna love you, but I better not touch
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Your mouth so hot
Your web I'm caught
Your skin so wet
Black lace on sweat
I hear you calling and it's needles and pins
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you, but you're under my skin
I wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
HOw i wish i can hUg You forEver...
Your blood like ice
One look could kill
My pain your thrill
I wanna love you, but I better not touch
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Your mouth so hot
Your web I'm caught
Your skin so wet
Black lace on sweat
I hear you calling and it's needles and pins
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you, but you're under my skin
I wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
HOw i wish i can hUg You forEver...
7:16 PM
hmm...
do you ever felt so helpless at times..
I know i am not sad... am I...
i dunno...
sad for....maybe i just want to disillusion myself...
who am i bluffing...
Me myself...... no one else...
Will the light ever come......
suddenly... things will change again...
yah when will i ever be free...
from all the superficiality..
maybe i never will be..
do you ever felt so helpless at times..
I know i am not sad... am I...
i dunno...
sad for....maybe i just want to disillusion myself...
who am i bluffing...
Me myself...... no one else...
Will the light ever come......
suddenly... things will change again...
yah when will i ever be free...
from all the superficiality..
maybe i never will be..
4:18 PM
Yay New blog layout..... SImple hor at least i dun have to worry about any more images not showing up or watever...zzzz LOL anyway yah i like purple a lot and pink =PppPpp Heheheheheeh SO happy exams are finally over yay =) i had been having a great time these few days.. been out with my close friend :D~~ hee i DUnno wat more to say maybe i am fortunate to meet certain pple in life.....anYway .... Isn't it better to have this experience once and not to hold on to it but to remember it in your heart and keep it there and think about it and savour it...LOL JUst Like my NeoNeo's french kiss LOL =X heh heh.... KissY kissy~~ LOL
Anyway what's with being horny... nothing is wrong about a guy being horny okie... when i mention " Out of ten guys, Nine are Horny... the last one is a gay.." this sentence itself isn't about me being feminist Okie... i mean just wake up... how can guys dun be horny... god made them this way to ensure the human life race goes on .... So Just relax okie... as long as you dun do illegal things like raping 12 year olds and stuff... being horny isn't a crime...Ha take a look at this okie... i mean geesh wat the hell on earth was he thinking and how can a ger that young enjoy petting oh my lord.... duh... sicko take a look
Hmm aiks suddenly dling a lot of songs LOL and sending some of my friends some =P my thoughts about things are like suddenly distracted... hee hee... bbl
Anyway what's with being horny... nothing is wrong about a guy being horny okie... when i mention " Out of ten guys, Nine are Horny... the last one is a gay.." this sentence itself isn't about me being feminist Okie... i mean just wake up... how can guys dun be horny... god made them this way to ensure the human life race goes on .... So Just relax okie... as long as you dun do illegal things like raping 12 year olds and stuff... being horny isn't a crime...Ha take a look at this okie... i mean geesh wat the hell on earth was he thinking and how can a ger that young enjoy petting oh my lord.... duh... sicko take a look
Hmm aiks suddenly dling a lot of songs LOL and sending some of my friends some =P my thoughts about things are like suddenly distracted... hee hee... bbl
1:49 PM
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OH MY LORD.............
I DIDN"T KNOW I WAS A BISEXUAL..............
OH MY LORD...............
i ONLY TOT I WAS LES..............
OH MY LORD..............
By the way wat the hell happen to my butterfly pic with ashton Kutcher inside please dun ask me okie...sad case think i go search for a new blog layout now...without any images....I HATE ANGELFIRE OKIE..
1:03 PM
Saturday, May 08, 2004
I LOVE THIS SONG
..........................................WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
UP close to the edge.....
I wanna fall all the way down.....
UP close to the edge....
Open my eyes......
walk straight aheaD....
and i wanna fall....
All the way down.....
I 'm gonna run when I hit the ground....
When You feel for me...
What i feel for you....
JUST SAVE me LOLOLOL the song is so dAMn nice
..........................................WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
UP close to the edge.....
I wanna fall all the way down.....
UP close to the edge....
Open my eyes......
walk straight aheaD....
and i wanna fall....
All the way down.....
I 'm gonna run when I hit the ground....
When You feel for me...
What i feel for you....
JUST SAVE me LOLOLOL the song is so dAMn nice
2:14 PM
hmmm... I am lucky to have a friend like you... serious... i had such a great time today though we did nothing much =D......
Life seems beautiful when you are around did you know that?
Life seems beautiful when you are around did you know that?
3:20 AM
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
That's it....it's really freaking weird dun you think each time the exams are near something has to happen....zzzzz...even my friend Irene says it too...or are we just subconciously more focused on exams each time they are near that every single thing we run into seems like a big major problem....bleah who knows... all i know is that i hadn't really been concentrating on my school work why?? That's something i want to know too..DUn you ever had the feeling...of lonliness...where no ones seems to be giving a damn whether u existed a not and then suddenly in the next moment u r overwhelmed... by the people calling you... people asking you to go out....
wat's this abt, god?
YAh i dun really know how to make decisions anymore...since when i have become so indecisive.. always fearing that the next step will go wrong......zzz...
save me..............
wat's this abt, god?
YAh i dun really know how to make decisions anymore...since when i have become so indecisive.. always fearing that the next step will go wrong......zzz...
save me..............
11:28 AM
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
hmm... so tired... haven u ever felt tired of everything... coming to a point u dun even want to carry on... Just want to end it all... nothing is certain... nothing's forever..... so why do you pinned all yr hope upon something that's so illusional...guess that's wat all humans love to do.... live in yr own delusions.... maybe the pain is lesser this way.... maybe its easier to accept what we want to see and hide our insecurities..maybe...that's why we never learn...........
12:44 PM
Monday, May 03, 2004
Haiz.........
HOw do you When he means it.. yah thats the thing....he msg me that he still misses me....dioNkz....Is he lying I can't really tell... he just wouldn't give up right.... yah .... there's Nothing nice about me...wonder what he sees in me... i can't figure it out....or all guys have the same motive they just want to have sex with the ger in the end ........ Erm geesh well... i dun really think i dunderstand guys but i do know there r very two important things to them in life that's SEx and FOOD... LOL serious just observe the guys will ya and slowly you will start to see this common language among the guys...
Well... Othello is a fucked up guy from the net okie sorry i didn't wanted to use the f word but sorry he really deserves it... maybe Honggy dun see why i am so irritated by just this simple nick... but he just pisses me off the way he ask abt oH so who is wendy... geesh lame asshole... and he dare to tell me he can be a gigolo and provide service for me what the in the world make him think that i am some sex starved creature so desparate to fall into his arms bleah if he even have arms and No that's not all.... you should see the way he disgusts me how the way he chats... Oh so neo Is a ger... Oh so Senzi is a GEr... for heaven's sake so wat if we r gers guys gays and lesbos... we all belong to the same human species dun we.... wat an asshole he chats like he has never seen a ger before and yeah right abt his lame comment that pple can act cute why he cannot... excuse me... at least pple act cute they really seem cute... when u act cute you just make the whole world die with you.....so why dun u just stop being such a lameo and just get off yr butt ...go to some geylang and try to smoothen yr horny nerves with some aids carrier or something...zzz Please dun say i never gave Othello a chance of being a just normal HI bye kinda friend to me.... well from the despo and lame ways he acts i can tell you straight in the face i dun need another friend like that...and Neo dun come tell me he is some yan dao kid or something... even if he is....if i ever had the chance to see him i would be kicking his ass so hard that he flys off to Moon and never be seen on #stfu again.....
Just get the channel registered please...
When it's over its over... dun tell me you still miss me still love me... didn't you realised when i was ard... i needed your love that much.... were you pretending not to see it...or basically dun have time for me.... changes are easily said and hard to do... you say you will change but will you really do ... I am so tired of crying feeling lonely and ......you should know it it's not that i really have given hope up on guys in fact i never did if not i am already a lesbian wats so hard finding a lesbian these days... yah and i am not searching for those fairy like tales of love or anything maybe SIngapore is a practical world and stuff and guys seem to be more practical...well just a little romance is needed......."haa haa some ang mo brought his gf to mac donalds and had a candle light dinner" ...all i know....Love is just too sweet to stay that simple..
he has done it hasn't he....
well do you know wat gers want... its that simple ...they just want love from you....and dun say u love her when you dun meant it can't show it.....wats the point..... i felt most love when i held his hand and laid on his shoulders.... i didn't want to let go...and tears began to fall... dun ask me why i just felt so touched with my inner most feelings ...the way he made me felt....was really unexplainable..... i knew there was something between us... but i knew it's not something that's going to be eternal... maybe that's why the mix of sadness and happiness all came rushing in at once.... i will never forget the movie i was watching with him......... and this guy dun ever guess who he is.... you will never know.....
HOw do you When he means it.. yah thats the thing....he msg me that he still misses me....dioNkz....Is he lying I can't really tell... he just wouldn't give up right.... yah .... there's Nothing nice about me...wonder what he sees in me... i can't figure it out....or all guys have the same motive they just want to have sex with the ger in the end ........ Erm geesh well... i dun really think i dunderstand guys but i do know there r very two important things to them in life that's SEx and FOOD... LOL serious just observe the guys will ya and slowly you will start to see this common language among the guys...
Well... Othello is a fucked up guy from the net okie sorry i didn't wanted to use the f word but sorry he really deserves it... maybe Honggy dun see why i am so irritated by just this simple nick... but he just pisses me off the way he ask abt oH so who is wendy... geesh lame asshole... and he dare to tell me he can be a gigolo and provide service for me what the in the world make him think that i am some sex starved creature so desparate to fall into his arms bleah if he even have arms and No that's not all.... you should see the way he disgusts me how the way he chats... Oh so neo Is a ger... Oh so Senzi is a GEr... for heaven's sake so wat if we r gers guys gays and lesbos... we all belong to the same human species dun we.... wat an asshole he chats like he has never seen a ger before and yeah right abt his lame comment that pple can act cute why he cannot... excuse me... at least pple act cute they really seem cute... when u act cute you just make the whole world die with you.....so why dun u just stop being such a lameo and just get off yr butt ...go to some geylang and try to smoothen yr horny nerves with some aids carrier or something...zzz Please dun say i never gave Othello a chance of being a just normal HI bye kinda friend to me.... well from the despo and lame ways he acts i can tell you straight in the face i dun need another friend like that...and Neo dun come tell me he is some yan dao kid or something... even if he is....if i ever had the chance to see him i would be kicking his ass so hard that he flys off to Moon and never be seen on #stfu again.....
Just get the channel registered please...
When it's over its over... dun tell me you still miss me still love me... didn't you realised when i was ard... i needed your love that much.... were you pretending not to see it...or basically dun have time for me.... changes are easily said and hard to do... you say you will change but will you really do ... I am so tired of crying feeling lonely and ......you should know it it's not that i really have given hope up on guys in fact i never did if not i am already a lesbian wats so hard finding a lesbian these days... yah and i am not searching for those fairy like tales of love or anything maybe SIngapore is a practical world and stuff and guys seem to be more practical...well just a little romance is needed......."haa haa some ang mo brought his gf to mac donalds and had a candle light dinner" ...all i know....Love is just too sweet to stay that simple..
he has done it hasn't he....
well do you know wat gers want... its that simple ...they just want love from you....and dun say u love her when you dun meant it can't show it.....wats the point..... i felt most love when i held his hand and laid on his shoulders.... i didn't want to let go...and tears began to fall... dun ask me why i just felt so touched with my inner most feelings ...the way he made me felt....was really unexplainable..... i knew there was something between us... but i knew it's not something that's going to be eternal... maybe that's why the mix of sadness and happiness all came rushing in at once.... i will never forget the movie i was watching with him......... and this guy dun ever guess who he is.... you will never know.....
11:33 AM
Saturday, May 01, 2004
Have You ever wanted to feel yet do not reach out...
Want it but dare not take it...
Miss it but deny it.......
Love it yet say u hate it.....
............. It's Saturday again yeah =)
Two more papers left before i can finally burn my notes away lol =) then its time on embark on my slimming plan though i am not sure how successful it will be lol.... Yah i miss my friends suddenly... the need to laff joke and cry with them..... dun you ever feel lonely? especially in the night.. i can't sleep a wink last night.... times passes by that quickly.....
Music's got the feeling so free...
Celebrate and dance so free...
One more time...
Yah sometimes i wish that feeling never ends the feeling so like drifting off to a faraway land ..... no i ma not on drugs lol... trance musice can actually make u feel in heaven ~ yah :D
I alwayS think there is a god ard except i have chose not to go on the christianity path yet cos there's just too much abt life to learn abt to go into serious religion yet...... maybe it's an excuse but i find my self happy as long as i know i am being well...... not going against my principles and doing something wrong....
Want it but dare not take it...
Miss it but deny it.......
Love it yet say u hate it.....
............. It's Saturday again yeah =)
Two more papers left before i can finally burn my notes away lol =) then its time on embark on my slimming plan though i am not sure how successful it will be lol.... Yah i miss my friends suddenly... the need to laff joke and cry with them..... dun you ever feel lonely? especially in the night.. i can't sleep a wink last night.... times passes by that quickly.....
Music's got the feeling so free...
Celebrate and dance so free...
One more time...
Yah sometimes i wish that feeling never ends the feeling so like drifting off to a faraway land ..... no i ma not on drugs lol... trance musice can actually make u feel in heaven ~ yah :D
I alwayS think there is a god ard except i have chose not to go on the christianity path yet cos there's just too much abt life to learn abt to go into serious religion yet...... maybe it's an excuse but i find my self happy as long as i know i am being well...... not going against my principles and doing something wrong....
2:18 PM
yah exams and exams been so like so stressed out lately... dun even know how i got through the first three papers of mine all i can say i was damn lucky for the tues and fri paper... was so hmm last min studying but still... :D while the thurs paper was like......wth am i writing...anyway as long as i can pass the module all well ends well.. =P
Was watching Final Destination 2 just now... i wonder if its true once death comes there's no escaping...well haa haa yah i have no escape from exams anyway...zzzzz okie time to sleep le brain is not working well.
Was watching Final Destination 2 just now... i wonder if its true once death comes there's no escaping...well haa haa yah i have no escape from exams anyway...zzzzz okie time to sleep le brain is not working well.
5:34 AM
