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Sunday, October 31, 2004

Uveitis - inflammation of the uVea. = ciliary body ,iris and choroid

diffuse = panuvetis
anterior= iridocyclitis, iriditis, cyclitis
posterior= retinitis, chorioretinitis, choroiditis

50% = systemic case
30% = idiopathologic
rest infections

Subjective:

pain
boring pain behind the eye
lacrimation
photophobia
variable vision
mild to severe

Objective:

1) anterior chamber
-hypopyon
-flare
-gravity inferior
-inflammatory cells

2) Synechia
-posterior
-anterior
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K....
plans after exams:
1) Lose 5 kg
2) change blog layout
3) DL maple story
4) find work and save money
5) If i really got so much time ah maybe i will take a look at a bit of maths and some notes =X Next term the modules even more telok x__X






I AM GRUMPY.
8:30 PM

Saturday, October 30, 2004

I am so sick of everything.... everything and its monosity.Maybe its the exams haa haa everything blame the exams meh?

My dad is going to Malacca tomolo with his friends again haa haa

My sis leh she got transfered back to China town area to work

Mum is always going out.........

Sorry i am being such a bitch...
maybe i got too much free time to spare... but the one being at home is always me =haa haa feel kinda lonely at times... i dun really know if u define that as lonely but its a really weird feeling and i did not like it..

Everything seems so weird... Especially when i tried to ate my dinner just now. It just taste so weird and different.

it's like i was back in the past those kind of feelings... everything my family is weird freaky... but still i love them.. but

i dunno no matter what i ate i just feel unhappy yah it sucks big time..
duno how to describe that feeling out... you know how some people use food as a way of comforting themselves...

yah even the last resort like food now did not have an effect on me...

Okie maybe it's really just the coffee and exam blues making me feel down geesh..
=( i am so tired... can't we all just surrender and go to some lala land =/


I AM GRUMPY.
7:33 PM

Ughz.. maybe i am gettng sick soon

After i tried to eat the cheeseburger my mum bought for me...
i felt like puking...

maybe i just dun like cows bah or maybe my whole body system is screwed up cos i haven been really sleeping.... taking lots of caffine and ingesting huge amounts of sweets

FREAK LA..
better pray i dun get diabetes or something and its been a bloody hell long of a time since i when to jog...

I just pray everything ends soon before my body system breaks down..

Why am i torturing my body system this way?
Why dun you ask them why we have to memorise so much eye diseases..
Yes i dun want to complain, studying is good i know

But at the rate i am going... Lets pray i get pass the age of thirty...
I dun want to end up with diabetes or kidney failure...

I think i am lucky i am not smoking or drinking... haa haa if not i think i cannot make it to thirty liao... =X


And seriously if i get it one day *touch wood*
Just buy champange roses for my funeral okie?





Best if can wrap in purple bundles =P

Also it would be great to have vocal trance music. I am not some old man dying doh.

Erm.. sorry if i freak you guys out... But anyway i usually talk like this ^^ heh heh

Yup HAPPY HALLOWEEN =D



I AM GRUMPY.
1:49 PM

Friday, October 29, 2004

haiz.. suddenly feeling a bit dumb? lol... my A levels results -> CCC and B3 for both GP and Chinese....

then the Cute ger say she got AABB and B3... suddenly i feel like crap lol i guess i really did not study in A levels bah...
thinking back seems so scary... i remembered the day i cried so badly lol......

and even turn to Ah hAo to weep =/ bleah freaking moody day... i think that was one of the worst times in my life....

the worst thing is i knew i did not even want to go university... then why go JC wor the first freaking time... i guess cos of peer pressure. told u le i was so damn dumb. ( there's more to it actually =X )

wow... guess the past sucks like hell >.<

Maybe heaven is kind to me and let me enter Singapore poly =X a lot of things seemed to take on a different direction =X heh heh better than the one i tot i would go after ba... ( after jc .. go get a work and get married to my first bf) <--- HENG NEVER COME TRUE OR I THINK MY NICK WOULD FOREVER BE SORROWFUL GER =X LOL

Oh yah come to think of it.... should thank Shi wei for trying to make me happy during that moody period lol =P Thanks man. you do so many good deeds YOU WILL GO TO HEAVEN!!! LOL I am such a crap =X must be all that pathology killer eye disease...
killing my brain cells.

i Wana be a star tonight.. Dance with me until the morning light~~

I AM GRUMPY.
8:37 PM

Ughz...
On sudden bouts of blue again.... Must be the exams i dun know why for whatever reason.. all the meomorising and when i memorise i eat i eat a lot... zzzz bread la ... whatever coffee..

=( gained weight le haiz.... can't wait for the freaking exams to be over.... wanted to fast for the day but cannot make it leh.... once i study i eat LOL WHAT A HORRID PROCESS.

I wish i had Jeanette Aw's body =P Tall and slender lololol my aim after exams haa haaa

THere are just so many things i wish to do right now... lol people are so predicatable at times.. when we have the time we dun really do things we really want... then comes the period where you are so freaking busy you want to do all the shit.. bleah -.-"

Humans are silly little dolls God has made to see us fumble and fall and cry over silly things then laugh again over the slightest insignificant matters..LOL yah i am not a christian la..

Ughz... I want to go jog but i feel so sian and bleah.... one more week just one more week and i will be free to go jog x__X

By the way finally catch the Champions last night... OH MY GOD.. TORO IS SO FREAKING YANDAO.. HE reminds me of Squall.. my face was like 0.0 LOL

No wonder my friend is so crazy over the 9pm show lol =P

Is it freaking possible i can dun eat one week? xD Unless i hibernate in North pole? LOL I hate my home i hate my home i hate my home.....

I AM GRUMPY.
10:46 AM

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

GOOD MORNING~ RISE AND SHINE ^^

haa haa
By the way i was really so freaking stressed out by studying yesterday.. my friend's cheeky program entertained me quite a bit.




Okie so you say what is with this pic.. LOL take a look at the right hand side... Guess what ?

He actually made al six boxes with his nick appear at the exact same time... SO you actually see 6 boxes coming up at the same time then disappearing later...

LOL a really freaking good way just to show your friends you are online =P

By the way if you can make out the words in the mirc =P I was KopicAt` inside .. why such a bloody nick? LOL cos i had an overdose of caffine last night =X



I AM GRUMPY.
7:30 AM





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When it comes to beauty, you spare no expense - and it shows

You're the kind of woman a man would launch a thousand ships for

It's hard for anyone to beat you in the beauty department

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Find the Love of Your Life
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I AM STRESSED AND BORED WHAT DO YOU EXPECT x____X

I AM GRUMPY.
1:10 AM

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Women who are stressed have more abdominal fat and that’s the bad kind of fat.And think about it, it’s upper-body obesity.”

“And it’s the bad kind of fat that’s associated with bad things like hypertension,developing diabetes, certain kinds of cancer and even gallbladder disease.”

A FINAL TURN IN THE STRESS FAT STORY…WHEN WE’RE STRESSED, INADDITION TO STORING MORE FAT, AREN’T WE SOMETIMES EATING FATTENING FOODS FOR COMFORT? STUDIES SAY YES. AND IT’S NOT JUST HUMANS THAT DO THIS. ANIMALS DO, TOO.

Stern“ There’s a biology behind that. When experimental animals are stressed, they don’t grab the celery sticks either. They grab the high-fat items – the high-fat, high-sugar items.”Szostak to co-worker“Basically, it’s calling out the items that we still need to fine tune….

”TO PREVENT GAINING WEIGHT BECAUSE OF STRESS, DON’T TRY TO ELIMINATE STRESS FROM YOUR LIFE. THAT’S IMPOSSIBLE. IN FACT, THERE’S SUCH THING AS GOOD STRESS.

Bocchicchio to co-worker“I would say…actually I would say…I’m going to start the output here. I’m going to try to find the guy….

”NOW LET’S FLIP THIS STORY UPSIDE DOWN BECAUSE STRESS REALLY ISN’T THE PROBLEM AFTER ALL – IT’S HOW YOU REACT TO THAT STRESS EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY.

Stern“It isn’t stress that makes you fat. It’s distress.

So we all have stress – living is stress.
But it’s distress, and we’ve got to figure out how not to have stress turn into distress.

”SO LET’S RETURN TO OUR STRESS SAMPLING MISSION FOR SOME WORDS OF WISDOM....

Hanashiro“My word to the wise – let it out, let it go, let it roll off your shoulders and breathe.

”Szostak“You have to put everything into perspective. You have to approach everything like‘don’t sweat the small stuff.’”

Hanashiro“Wow…one more down, baby.”

Well, research on stress impacting weight does apply more to women than men.Studies are showing that men with high job-related stress are five times more likely to have a build up of plaque in their arteries, which, in turn, that can lead to a heart
attack.

So, the bottom line for everybody, male or female, is managing stress will help
you manage your health.


LOL
HOW TO RELIEVE STRESS?
WHAT THE FREAKING HELL
LOL.

I AM GRUMPY.
10:48 AM

Sunday, October 24, 2004

i really love the night a lot.. i dun know why but at this very moment at 11.27pm i feel so at peace... like everything is so beautiful and nice.. yup i am just sitting in my living room and no tv no music... so peaceful hmm..~ Nice =)

Sometimes... if only this moment could last forever.. but i guess good things are meant to be enjoyed and experienced and remembered...lasting memories will do ^^

Starry night... and the night sky.... makes me a very happy ger =P LOL

I AM GRUMPY.
11:27 PM

HOHO...

this is so funny.. I was just telling my sis how i was going to get Diabetes.. then she whispher to me... "i tell u ah dun drink the tea mum makes..too sweet le even i cannot tahan..."

Wahahaahhaa... my sis is so cute ^^ happy happy see her at home today LOL...

^^ shall heed her advice stop drinking tea mum makes... i think she over added on the sugar.... x___X

I AM GRUMPY.
11:16 AM

SO much for my detoxification diet...

*Munching on Biscuits branded TIGER*

Geesh... dun take my words too serious in here oKie.. most of the time they are just random thoughts all piled up in my head so i just blabber off without thinking that much ^^

haiz...

Stargardt's disease/ Fundus Flavimaculatous...

Most common hereditary macular disorder (70%)

Subjective :

Progressive loss of vision (over yrs)to 6/60
bilateral

Objective :
Initially minimal ophthalmic signs
Beaten up Bronze metal appearance in macula ( RPE atrophy and choroidal vessels show up)
Yellow flecks seen acorss the macula




I AM GRUMPY.
7:00 AM

Saturday, October 23, 2004

HAIZ I GOT SO FREAKING STRESSED EACH TIME I STUDY I KEEP EATING SWEETS.... DO U KNOW THE BLOODY AMOUNT OF SUGAR I HAVE CONSUMED OVER THESE FEW DAYS CAN MAKE UP BUKIT BATOK HILL LIAO MA?


Yeap... I am freaking mad at myself for eating so much sweets... look it isn't just about getting fat okie... geesh my liver must be dying or something... overworking from producing insulin to meet my high sugar diet... =( sooner or later if i dun change the way i eat i am going to get type 2 diabetes.. freaking hell -___-"""


Ughzz.. Okie i really have to stick to this le...... If not i am really going to die very young which is a NO NO.. cos i haven enjoy myself yet to the fullest....

My Detoxification Diet:

1) No sweets
2) no sweetened condensed milk
3) okie get your hands off the tea pot..
4) Nope No salt either.....
5) just forget about deep fried items especially yr FAST FOOD
6) ice cream is a definite no no
7) No sweetened drinks at ALL GET IT MEI LING?
8) forget about bread for the moment
9) Anything that contains artificial sweeteners is a NO


Okie i am supposed to eat:


1) yup Vegetables...
2) fish not soaked in OIL
3) A lot of water A LOT... whenever mouth ITCHY IT IS WATER...


I guess i will try carry it out for a month or so? heard that it takes pretty long to cleanse yr body of all the messy things u piled it up with...

Any yah get this when u overeat u actually stretch yr stomach and you know how long it takes to get yr stomach back to it's original size?
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YEs.. it takes ONE freaking WEEK... That is how long okie..


Sign =( i need a strong will... I think i can I think i can I think i can... i suddenly remember a story about the toy train.. anyway its a i think i can and eventually it is i can ^^

GOOD LUCK TO ME~

ANd oh Yah if you thought i was ending this post ...











HA HA FOOLED YOU...

i haven enjoyed myself to the fullest yet.... so what is that i haven do and Really wana do..... the list goes on and on....

1) Learn to roller blade
2) Learn drums =D
3) stay up at night lying on the dry nice floor outdoor somewhere looking at stars and with me beside is the guy i like =D
4) Watch sunset....with the guy
5) watch sunrise.......with the guy
6) go clubbing for one freaking night with my pals
7) go have more slumber parties at my close gal friends house
8) EArn money and buy nice nice clothes
9) Lose a lot of fats so i can wear bikini.. LOL i dun think i will ever dare.
10) GO paris for backpacking
11) Become a part time DJ?( wah yesh i am in dreamland~)
12) tatoo if i slim down and have money and have the guts LOL....
13) money to treat my poor dying hair...
.....


GUESS the rest of my brain is occupied by my ocular pathology notes =/ cannot think any more le x______________X

SAlmie.. thanks for sending me the Seven Years and fifty days slow version so nice =X.....



I AM GRUMPY.
2:05 PM

x______________X

I am so tired... Yup haa haa i have started to study le surprisingly =X.... LOL..
haiks cos i did badly for my tests ma =\ and there is sO much to memorise

bo bian have to start now not much time left actually...So tired i fell asleep ard 2 and woke at six.. haa haa so guai =/

Hmm.. well i thought i would fail both Vivian's tests... surprisingly.. she gave those kind of chicken feet test.. =X but i got only 33/50 lol...

But pass can le cos too many too memorise in the end i cannot memorise finish lor.... I like study a few pages nia thought i was going to fail man =X

LOL She is kinD~~~ LOL she knew most of us cannot make it the first time round... anyway my first test i got 33.5/50 =P also hardly studied for that one...

HEH HEH HEH but my slide test sucked wor... what she do is she show us slides of eye diseases then from those pictures we are supposed to write the names and answer whatever Qn on the slide =( I got only 13/25 -_________-""" Just passed so pathetic LOL....

Anyway i get 18.5/30 for this module cos all these three tests add up to thirty percent.. kaoz.... so now u have to realised i have to pia so hard in my final exam for an A or B... i think get B can tao chio liao....

Haiz LOL.. i hate this semester cant wait for it to be over =X.... Should have studied everyday geesh......I HATE Cs...zzzzz

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE~ STUDY~ NO TIME LE... YOU DUN WANT TO FAIL RIGHT? I CANNOT FAIL.. I NO MORE MONEY PAY FOR EXTRA SEMESTER IN POLYTECHNIC LE LOL... X______X

I AM GRUMPY.
9:14 AM

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

aiyah that day lor... see i only get 20/87... for the pathology test.. zzzz sadded.

I AM GRUMPY.
1:32 PM

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Wendy Chan Mei Ling, from this day forward you will be known as

Olivia Raine

ha ha check out yr gothic name... though i dunno what is so gothic abt mine -.-"

I AM GRUMPY.
5:44 PM

hmm.. I AM SO FREAKING DAMN LUCKY... remember i said my Opthal pract test suck WEEE... i got 51.5/60 MAYBE MIRACLES DO HAPPEN AT TIMES =D

I AM GRUMPY.
4:51 PM




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ah LOL... -___-"





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I AM GRUMPY.
6:33 AM

Monday, October 18, 2004

I got this from Elise's Blog.... Actually dunno why this Huge post is so lor sor.. read okie pple... i can sum it in one word for u at the end.

Through the course of finding love in life, everyone of us will find four people.

The first person is yourself,
The second one is the person whom you love most,
The third one is the person who loves you the most,
The fourth one is the person whom you spend the rest of your life with...

Firstly, you will meet the person whom you love most, it was then that you felt the feeling of love;

While trying to understand the feeling of being loved, you found the person who loves you the most;

While you go through the experience of loving and being loved, you learned what is love, it was then that you truly know what you need, thus you found the most suitable person whom you can spend the rest of your life with.

But sadly, in the reality of life, these three people are usually not the same person; The person whom you love most didn't choose you; The person who loves you the most is usually not the person you love most; The relationship which lasts longest is usually not the person you love the most, nor the person who loves you most, but the person who appears at the most suitable timing.

Nobody purposely wants a change of heart.

When he loves you, he truly loves you.

When he doesn't love you, he really doesn't.

When he loves you, he isn't able to hide his love from you; Similarly, when he doesn't love you, he couldn't pretend to love you.

When a person leaves you because he doesn't love you, you have to ask yourself if you still love him.

If you do not love him anymore, please do not hold on because of your pride.

If you still love him, you would want him to be happy. You would wish him to be with the person he really love, and you would not stop him.

If you stop him from getting happiness, it would mean that you do not love him anymore.

If you do not love him,How could you blame him for a change of heart?

Love is not possessing.When you like the moon, you can't bring down the moon. But the rays from the moon will continue to shine into your room. In other words, when you love someone, you possess him in another way.

Let his memories stay in your heart forever. If you truly love a person, you have to let him be himself - Love him when he is good, and love him when he is bad: Love both his good points, and his bad points. You must not hope for him to change into the kind of guy you like. If he can't change, you won't love him anymore. It's not like that.

When you love a person, there is no reason why you love him. You only know that no matter what or where, whether you are in a good or bad mood, you only want this person by your side; The real kind of love is when two person stays by each other's side through the most difficult times, without any conditions.

For example, Love is about giving, and not only thinking of receiving. Breaking up is a test you both have to go through. If the love between the both of you is not strong enough to withstand that, the only way is to give up.

True love will never change to hatred. During lover's sweet talk, we always like to ask the other to swear. When we promise, why do we need the other person to swear? That's because we do not trust the other person, we do not believe in love.

Those promises of love doesn't sound realistic: "I will not change my love for you, i will love you till the sea dries up and the rocks decay, till the sky falls down on us!" We already know that the sea will never dry up,The rocks will not decay,And the sky will not fall down on us; Even if they do, we would not live till that day.

When making promises, we must take note, not to make promises that can be fulfilled. It is better to promise promises that cannot be fulfilled. Since we know the promises we made is impossible, it is okay to just say say only.

Remember: "Promises that are impossible to achieve are the most touching ones.

"In love, people do not do what they say; The person who says doesn't believe; The person who listens doesn't believe either.
"

SIMPLE LA
LOVE IS COMPLICATED.

^^

I AM GRUMPY.
11:12 PM





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What the hell.. my kissing skills that bad meh. Idiot. My ex was drooling over my mouth OKIE and maybe even he is too?? =X Whahahahaha =S

I AM GRUMPY.
9:37 PM

Erm.. well... I totally flop today's pract test for ophthalmic Optics... my lens i thought it was a spherical lens i think it is cylinderical and my oral component sucked big time.. Dawn was like prompting me with the answers all the time yet i couldn't give her an answer =S....

Er... The theory test was so so.. i didn't really study again.. haa haa but i dun think i will fail.. haiz what the hell am i thinking man...

I just keep procrastinating my work.. and Today HN asked me one question.. and i really did not know how to answer her...

Nope it ain't about school work haa haa... She asked me so how are you and him? I was dumbfounded.. and i thinked hard..

I just told her I guess we are friends bah... all along maybe i know we do feel something for each other.. but seems like i cannot do much when everything is as it is...

I dun want him to feel pressurised too.. i should face reality and grow up ha ha that is one bloody area in my life i hate... GROW UP... dunno why we have to grow up..

the world still sucks like shit even when you grow up so what is the f******* point right... Might as well have the innocence of a kid and appreciate the simple things in life...

Why the shit must we act like we know everything when we r actually clueless about them.. yah adult world sucks... everyone acts as if they know the world

YAh right.. Then how come adults still smoke? You mean they dunno the harmful benefits? Why they still gamble? take drugs? why they have sex around? why do extra marital affairs happen? WHy do slutty bitches still stick to guys who already have wives.. and yah? they are adults no?

U all keep saying grow up..But as far as i can tell even some of the teenagers i met are more sensible then these so called adults...

I am not in a bad mood okie... I just maybe feel a bit hmm dunno expressive... i really like my class gers a lot.. HN asked me that question about him cos i know she wanted some advice too after all she had a hard time accepting she and CK were over ..

i tried my best to sound cheery and all just to make her feel better =) I hope it work though i was giving her some advice on how to handle things... i told her to take things easy and well maybe its best u let the guy see the world

there are after all so many gers out.. there let him see everyone and then if he finally knows what he wants and if he wants you he will come back to u =)

It is better than keeping him for now and losing him later right.. i mean if nothing works out..its just meant to be so...

yup tears fall but they will dry...
pain comes but it will go...
Love may die but it will be rekindled eventually..
if our love was strong...
If not i guess we all have to accept it is just a beautiful dream....
and we have to wake up eventually.....

ha ha... i dunno why... but my tear fell when i typed the above words... maybe it is the rain... making me feel emotional..

Yup luckily my umbrella was with me when i went out this morning... It was different for once... hearing the rain splatter onto my umbrella instead of my clothes......

You know right there is Eve cos god made Adam pulled out a rib bone of his own..so actually everyone is out there looking for his rib bone.. some find it some dun ... I guess god is really mean at times.. =(

Gera if u r reading this lol rememeber how i told you about god made a void in each of our hearts and if we dun believe in him the void can never be satisfied and we will always be searching for that something in life...

See Mean GOD =(

( the above comments are written without any hatred agt GOd or christianity... It is just a ger feeling somewhat down and commenting without thinking. )

Well.. IT"S MY FREAKING BLOG AFTER ALL.... WHY THE HELL SHOULD I MIND WHAT YOU THINK =X

I AM GRUMPY.
6:44 PM

Sunday, October 17, 2004

You are one of the luckiest signs, because you believe in following your wanderlust (LOLOLOLOL i just find it HILARIOUS) to your bliss and living life to the fullest.

You seek to be a sage, and every aspect of your life seems to flow from that basic ambition. Extraordinary reading comprehension enhances your scholarship.

And your yen for travel is a metaphor for your quest for knowledge. An abiding sense of optimism constitutes the soles of your vagabond shoes.

Your gregarious personality and ability to navigate your way out of adversity fuels your faith in fun and adventure.

You sing in the key of freedom, and that has definite implications for your love life. A conventional long-term relationship doesn't appeal to you because it implies a restrictive commitment.

Only one that would enable you to remain totally free would suit your idea of happiness. You would make a good single guy/gal, because routine crushes your spirit, and you want to see too much of the planet and its peoples to be anything but a nomad.

Your happiness requires a multiplicity of stimuli, and you're unlikely to settle down enough to suit a significant other who doesn't understand your impulse to stay on the move.

Your prognosis <--- PROGNOSIS? LOL I THOUGHT THEY ONLY USE IT FOR DISEASES... =S for happiness is high, indeed, because wherever you lay your hat is your home.

People you meet along the way don't feel like strangers; you hold friends close and your liberal wit and relaxed style put people at your feet.

wOoo
heh heh.. =P


SAGITTARIUS

To Know Me: Think I'm high-minded? I'm generally just a curious soul. Often I tend to see the world differently from the norm, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

...Is to Love Me: Please understand that I'm a free sprit. If I drop off the face of the earth for a few weeks, or don't immediately return your phone call, it's nothing personal.

Read My Mind: Don't force the issue. I can't help but spring from pressure!

Read My Lips: I'm thirsty for knowledge.

=X

I AM GRUMPY.
10:38 PM

Honey
It's been a long time coming
And I can't stop now
Such a long time running
And I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Can you hear the sound?
Cos I can't help thinking
And I don't look down...

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on everyone
On everyone...

Baby its been a long time waiting
Such a long long time
And I can't stop smiling
No I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Oh can you hear that sound?
Cos I can't help crying
And I won't look down...

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I
On you and I

I AM GRUMPY.
7:53 PM

Can you keep up?
Babyboy, make me lose my breath
bring the noise, make me lose my breath
hit me hard, make me lose my hhhh hhhh
Can you keep up?
Babyboy, make me lose my breath
bring the noise, make me lose my breath
hit me hard, make me lose my breath


Oohh...
I put it right there, made it easy for you to get to
now you wanna act like you don't know what to do
after I done done everything that you asked me
grabbed you, grind you, liked you, tried you
moved so fast, baby now i can't find you
Oohh...
I'm startin' to believe that I'm way too much for you
all that talk but it seems like you can't come through
all them lines like you could satisfy me
now I see where believing you got me
gave you the wheel but you can't drive me

Can you keep up?
Babyboy, make me lose my breath
bring the noise, make me lose my breath
hit me hard, make me lose my hhhh hhhh
Can you keep up?
Babyboy, make me lose my breath
bring the noise, make me lose my breath
hit me hard, make me lose my breath



Oohh...
Two things i don't like when i'm trynna get my groove
is a partner that meets me only halfway, and just can't prove
Take me out so deep when you know you can't swim
need a lifegaurd and I need protection
to put it on me deep in the right direction
Oohh...
You understand the facts that I'm trynna get to you
You movin' so slow like you just don't have a clue
Didn't momma teach you to give affection
learn the difference from a man and an adolescent
It ain't you boo, so get ta steppin'

Can you keep up?
Babyboy, make me lose my breath
bring the noise, make me lose my breath
hit me hard, make me lose my hhhh hhhh
Can you keep up?
Babyboy, make me lose my breath
bring the noise, make me lose my breath
hit me hard, make me lose my breath


If you can't make me say oohh
Like the beat of this drum
Why you ask for some
You ain't really want none
If you can't make me say oohh
Like the beat of this groove
You don't have no business in this
Here's your papers, baby you are dismissed

Can you keep up?
Babyboy, make me lose my breath
bring the noise, make me lose my breath
hit me hard, make me lose my hhhh hhhh
Can you keep up?
Babyboy, make me lose my breath
bring the noise, make me lose my breath
hit me hard, make me lose my breath

I AM GRUMPY.
7:33 PM

Uhh uhh uhh.
You ready B? Let's go get 'em..

[Jay-Z]
Look for me! Young, B
Cruisin down the westside - high, way
Doing what we like to do - our, way
Eyes behind shades, this necklace the reason
all of my dates been blind dates
But today, I got my thoroughest girl wit me
I'm mashin the gas, she's grabbin the wheel, it's true to the heart
She rides with me - the new Bobby and Whitney
Only time we don't speak is during "Sex and the City"
She gets Carrie fever, but soon as the show is over
She's right back to being my soldier
Cuz mami's a rider, and I'm a roller
Put us together, how they gon' stop both us?
What ever she lacks, I'm right over her shoulder
When I'm off track mami is keepin me focused
So let's, lock this down like it's supposed to be
The '03 Bonnie and Clyde, Hov' and B


[Jay] All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
[Bey] Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend.
[Jay] All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
[Bey] Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend.

[Jay-Z]
The problem is, you dudes treat the one that you lovin
with the same respect that you treat the one that you humpin
Now they 'bout nothin - if ever you mad about somethin
It won't be that; oh no it won't be that
I don't be at, places where we comfy at
With no be-atch; oh no you won't see that
And no, I ain't perfect - nobody walkin this earth's surface is
But girlfriend, work with the kid
I keep you workin' at Hermes, Birkin Bag
Manolo Blahnik, Timbs, aviator lens
600 drops, Mercedes Benz
The only time you wear Burberry to swim
And I don't have to worry, only worry is him
She do anything necessary for him
And I do anything necessary for her
so don't let the necessary occur, yep!

[Jay] All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
[Bey] Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend.
[Jay] All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
[Bey] Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend.

[Beyonce]
(Talk to 'em B)
If I was your girlfriend
I'll be there for you, if somebody hurts you
Even if that sombody's me
Yeah-hee (break it down for 'em)
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be
And so I put this on my life
Nobody or nothing will ever come between us
And I promise I'll give my life
my love and my trust if you was my boyfriend
Put this on my life
The air that I breathe in, all that I believe in
I promise I'll give my life
my love and my trust if you was my boyfriend

I AM GRUMPY.
4:36 PM

彷彿上一分鐘
你還陪在我左右 
還以為我們會開花結果
我還記得玫瑰色天空 
卻模糊了我們的臉孔 
哼過的歌到底是什麼內容

彷彿已經自由 下一刻我變成風 吹過你的領空 差點失控
回憶在夜裡鬧得很兇 我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想讓你知道我懂 卻擔心言不由衷

我們都接受 一定是彼此不夠成熟 在愛情裡分不了輕重
誠實得過了頭 不能退後也無法向前走
愛是一個自私的念頭 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感動 能記得多久

彷彿已經自由 下一刻我變成風 吹過你的領空 差點失控
回憶在夜裡鬧得很兇 我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想讓你知道我懂 卻擔心言不由衷

我們都接受 一定是彼此不夠成熟 在愛情裡分不了輕重
誠實得過了頭 不能退後也無法向前走
愛是一個自私的念頭 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感動 能記得多久

我們都接受 一定是彼此不夠成熟 在愛情裡分不了輕重
誠實得過了頭 不能退後也無法向前走
愛是一個自私的念頭 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感動 能記得多久

I AM GRUMPY.
1:30 PM

Erm... Heh heh...
Was watching the Jacky Wu show Just now...
Laugh till i really pengz ^^

ANyway he said somethign that i felt really worth mentioning.. so you pple better listen up ^^V

WOman..You dun have to Understand them...YOu just need to love them.. WHy? Cos WOman Are Shen Jing Bing ( MAD ) They can never be understood.. heh heh i thought it was quite true.. as for guys.. They dun need love.. You just need to Understand them... Why? cos they are beasts.. LOL THEY DUN NEED LOVE.. DUn scold me hor..... Is he say One Not me =X It is up to you guys to decide whether it is true a not LOL!!~

I AM GRUMPY.
11:26 AM

I haven been blogging much about my feelings, my thoughts these few days... and now they are like in one big jumbled up messy thoughts... oh my god =S Where should i begin man.. And yah just on the hind note .. though they are in one big jumbled up mess.. it is a happy one big jumbled up messy thought.

Hmm.. Haven really been going outside these few days... even though people asked me out...

i guess i am suffering from some "LEAVE ME ALONE...I JUST WANA SIT IN FRONT OF MY PC AND ROT" disorder..

apparently i even turn down a free movie treat from my sis... geesh not that i am so stressed out by studying every minute till i cannot afford time to tear my butt of the chair...

And last night.. i actually went to my kitchen to look for i dunno.... i was looking for something that can make me get high? Do i sound delirious =S LOL..

i was opening cabinets and i found this box of panadols... I wonder do people get high from eating many doses of it.. Oh reminds me ( gtts = drops , qid = 4 times every day => Something from my pharmacology module)...

And yah i dun think they do.. was kinda disappointed and put the box back beside.. come on panadols need money too i should use them when i really got headcaches or something...instead of Just wasting money away like that.

Then i saw the Touche bottle in my fridge.. yah it's been there since the last time i work which is around June? Geesh... I guess it isn't that tasty after all... And the two cans of tiger beer in my fridge... bleah was already expired...

duh.. nothing left to get high..LOL relax.. I AM NOT ON DRUGS.. and dun worry i won't succumb to smoking.. It is just too BLoody expensive and a waste of my lungs... I rather eat till i die or something like that.

And seriously i had no mood to go jogging these few days.. dun ask me why.. blame the exam blues and tests blues.. oh yah by the way i got tests every single day next week.. yah Just kill me Dunno what is the actual difference anyway..

It is weird how he come up to my head sometimes.. Just visually appear LOL.. sounds like GUI leh -.-" heh heh... I was taking a look at the sunset yesterday of course i cannot really see the sun setting here in the vincinity of my very messed up room la... I mean there was this orange sky that sort of glowed... and then he just magically appeared! =X

Oh well.. I send him an sms. =) nothing much just that maybe since he intruded my brain might as well give him an sms to let him know he is being thought of...It is always nice to know someone is thinking about you right.. Unless of course some horny ah Pek is using you as his object of desire for visual stimulation.. UGHZ.
Enough said.

Anyway... I dunno why couples get together then couples break... badz.. if you are reading this remember that transition joke? Nothing is forever .... maybe except weight gain .. Very corny but true =
I know i am boring you all with my illogical thoughts... haiz think i may blog later....distracted by the repeated telecast of WO cai WO cai WO cai cai cai LOL =X

I AM GRUMPY.
9:27 AM

Saturday, October 16, 2004

It takes 3 second to say the word "I Love You",
3 minutes to explain it,
3 hours to demonstrate it,
3 days to appreciate it,
3 trimesters to produce it....
but a LIFETIME to prove it!

When you love, it's not for you to be understood, but for you to understand;

Not for you to take, but for you to be taken;

Not for you to listen, but not for you to dictate;

For you to sacrifice, but not for you to demand;

Not for you to count or measure, but to for you to LOVE.

In order for another person to love you, you must first learn to love yourself.
Others could only accept you, when you've accepted yourself.

Love brings two hearts together
Trust keeps it going all the way.....

We always aspire to be someone else, except to be ourselves. Why would you want to be a duplicate of someone else, when you can be the one & only in this world?

To the world, you may be one person...
But to one person, you may be the WORLD..

heh heh... this is so sweet =) i got this from AL's blog ^^

I AM GRUMPY.
10:44 PM

When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed
and she'd read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory

I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I want to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else
I'd rather rescue myself

Someday I'm gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart, and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am
Don't need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me
When I give myself then it has to got to be, an equal thing

I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else
I'd rather rescue myself


I can slay, my own dragons
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free

I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else
I'd rather rescue myself

I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else
I'd rather rescue myself

I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' in a dark old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no one else
I'd rather rescue myself

............... LOL... i want to be.. WENDY CHAN MEI LING LA =P

I AM GRUMPY.
8:36 PM

So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a cross-hair
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered I lie
I'm just a cross-hair
I'm just a shot, then we can die

I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out

I stay, you don't show
Don't move, time is slow
I say... take me out

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out

If I move, this could die
If eyes move, this could die
I want you... to take me out

I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know
You say you don't know
I say... take me out

If I wait, this could die
If I wane, this could die
I want you... to take me out

If I move, this could die
If eyes move, this could die
Come on... take me out

I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here with you


This song is so Attitute problem But I LIKE~!!!!

I AM GRUMPY.
2:36 PM

A beautiful thought:


A little girl and her father were crossing a flimsy bridge. The father was kind of scared, so he asked his little daughter,

"Honey, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river.

"The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. "If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go."

Moral of the story:

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours.



CHim right lol.. i kop from my friend's blog =D

I AM GRUMPY.
4:51 AM

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Paranoid |||| 14%
Schizoid |||||||||| 34%
Schizotypal |||||||||||| 50%
Antisocial |||||||||| 38%
Borderline |||||| 22%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 42%
Narcissistic |||||||||||||||| 62%
Avoidant |||||| 30%
Dependent |||||||||||| 46%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| 46%
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Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal



Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.


Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.


Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic



Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive



Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

I AM GRUMPY.
2:37 AM

Friday, October 15, 2004

cannot make it... i always say i want to lose weight.. until now leh still bloody fat.... Hai yah........ i am sick of envying gers that have slim stomachs and legs i wish i can wear nice clothes like them too.. =( I dun care by the end of this yr i should slim doWN le HMMPH... I HATE BEING A GER AT TIMES.

I AM GRUMPY.
8:31 PM

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

A Friend is.... 朋友就是 ....

Accepts you as you are 接受原本的你
Believes in "you" 相信你這個人
Calls you just to say "Hi" 打電話給你就是想說聲"嗨"
Doesn't give up on you 從不放棄對你的信心
Envisions the whole of you 預期你總是盡全力

Forgives your mistakes 原諒你的過錯
Gives unconditionally 無條件地過錯
Helps you 幫助你
Invites you over 邀請你
Jest "be" with you 靜靜地在你的身旁
Keeps you close at heart 靠近你的心

Loves you for who you are 因你原來的樣子而愛你
Makes a difference in your life 使你的生活與以往不同
Never judges 不間斷
Offers support 支持你
Picks you up 扶你一把
Quiets your fears 止息你的懼怕

Raises your spirits 鼓舞你的心靈
Says nice things about you 跟別人述說你好的那一面
Tells you the truth when you need to hear it 當需要時會告訴你實情
Understands you 懂你
Values you 看重你

Walks beside you 與你同行
X-plain things you don't understand 解你的疑惑
Yells when you won't listen aXnd 在你聽不下時會大吼一下
Zaps you back to reality 把你拉回現實

I AM GRUMPY.
4:21 PM

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

hmm LOL.. i ate way a lot today... i guess over my linit... but today was the first bloody time since so long i actually feel satiated and happy =X
Weee~~

LOl but this the last time le if i eat everyday very soon i am going to end up bigger than the world =P heh heh anyway i feel better maybe i really lack of nutrients for the past few days.. always feel cranky after eating feel so happy LOL i mean now lah =PpPPp anyway i dun wana worry about the fats Gues i will just jog them off tomolo pray i dun get lazy okay =D....

LOL i got ths song BABYCAKES~!! FrOm badz!! LOL =D THANKS A MILLION... THIS SONG ROCKS =D they remind me of daddy Dj... heh heh.....

BABYCAKES~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ =D

You just don't know
I just want you to know oh, oh,
that I think our love will grow, yeah, yeah (x6)

Baby cakes you just don't know, know
how i i, i like it down low, low
and i just want you to know that i think our love will grow
we'll take it step by step because
i'm not something you own [x2]

confused...don't know what i'm feelin
confused...relationships without meanin
and i miss seein you gleaming
time to wake up and stop the dreaming!
cos.... your my lil' babycakes and
i know you got what it takes!
the way you make me feel and the way i am,
wen you talk to ur friends..
and call me your man, i'm gonna
tell you right now i appreciate it,
your the one for me your the real
****! you were there from the start..
wen i was lost you helped me fing my heart,
tell her!!!!!!!
had to thank you, thank you,
from the bad times n the good times me n c'hu
theres just one thing i want u to know!

I just want you to know oh, oh,
that I think our love will grow, yeah, yeah (x6)

Baby cakes you just dont know, know
how i i, i like it down low, low
and i just want you to know that i think our love will grow
we'll take it step by step because
i'm not something you own [x2]

Lovin every minute
Just you and me
And I'm still dreaming
You'd be my baby
Maybe there's a possibility
We grow old together live happily
And your grave
Bring out the tiger in me
He says do i never need cursing me
Your the man for me
The one who thinks what will life be like
If our eyes never met
And they say it's a song for everyone
At the first sight you know it's love
See the person and you can't be hostile
Coz you got butterflies in ya belly
That's why I like a different dimension
Coz you can't help it but feel the affections
Sexual tention physical attractions
Instant flip flirtation actions

I just want you to know oh oh
That I think our love wil grow yeah yeah

Baby cakes
You just don't know, know
How I I
I like it down low
And I just want you to know
That I think I love will grow
Will take it step by step
Because I'm not something you own [x2]

I I got to know [x4]

The way you look at me
Yeah you pull me closer
Our bodies together
Under the cover
Soft kisses
With ya hands all over
If I have to cry
Then ya cry on my shoulder
Can't get enough
When you loosen my neck
Goes down to my belly
Carress my breast
Well ship your body
Like you were a godess
Your the man for me
Need 2 gimmie the best
Your the number one for me
And it's no contest
For Any other man
Who got no interest
Loving you
Whenever it's wrong or right
I'm thinking of you
Everyday and night
People don't get the wrong idea
It's about us so don't interfere
The way you look at me
Cakes its gotta be
When your out
When your stood right next to me

I just want you to know oh oh
That I think I'll have a go yeah yeah [x4]

Baby cakes
You just don't know, know
How I I
I like it down low
And I just want you to know
That I think I love will grow
Will take it step by step
Because I'm not something you own [x2]

thats on the single, on numba 2

I AM GRUMPY.
9:26 PM

hmm.. i was very stressed yetserday.... binged on a lot of sweets. =( and i couldnt get to study till 5 am.............. heng the test still okay bah... i think can get at least a B? best get A haa haa dreaming me =\.. TOMOLO NO SCHOOL =X

I AM GRUMPY.
7:23 PM

Monday, October 11, 2004

My japanese name is 猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 千秋 Chiaki (very fine in autumn).
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:34 PM

water2
You came from the water. Calm and shy, you know
what you want, but sometimes are afraid to
stand up for yourself.


Where did you come from?
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wahhahaahhahaa.......


Artistic
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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..........oh well =X i love art!! and music! =P


DarkMagic
Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!


Please rate ^^


What kind of dark person are you?
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HASH(0x8a2dbf4)
You are the color pink. As a beautiful and sweet
human, you are everybody's favorite person.
Healthy and energetic, you're often seen
spreading the happines. As an unusually
charming and sweet person, you're always ready
to comfort people who are down. You sympathize
with everyone, but not always yourself. Aside
from that, you are light-hearted and cheery.
And you make it your duty to make every cloud
have


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I AM GRUMPY.
4:26 PM

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Okay this is very important for all those of you who like to diet a lot please read this article.



Fasting results in rapid initial weight loss



Under normal circumstances, the principle fuel for the body is glucose. The brain, in particular, must receive a constant supply of glucose in order to function properly.

During a period of calorie restriction, glucose, which is stored in the liver as glycogen, is used first to supply energy.

Glycogen is stored with water, so when it's broken down for energy, water will be released as well. It's this fluid that is responsible for the rapid weight loss that occurs in the first one to two days (anywhere between three to five pounds per day) of severely calorie-restricted diets, such as the Hollywood Miracle Diet, Cabbage Soup Diet and The Grapefruit Diet, all of which claim that you can lose 10 pounds in two days.

Consequences: If it sounds too good to be true, it is: this weight loss won't last.

When normal eating is resumed, glucose and water stores will be replenished and the original body weight will be attained.

The rapid loss of fluid can also lead to the loss of electrolytes and dehydration, so the only things that are 'cleansed' from the body are the minerals needed for muscle contractions, nerve transmissions, regulation of body fluids and other physiological functions. The sudden drop in sugar in the blood, as glycogen stores are diminished, will result in tiredness, confusion and mood swings. These are the symptoms that are often mistakenly thought to be the first step in the cleansing process of a detox diet.


Cutting calories slows down weight loss



The liver stores only enough glycogen (energy) to last for one day, so when fasting lasts longer than 24 hours, the body will then turn to muscle to produce glucose for energy. After following a very low calorie diet or fast for one week, 30 percent of the total weight loss is muscle and the rest is fluid.

The amount of muscle in the body sets your metabolic rate (the rate at which you burn calories). So, as muscle is lost, they perform less metabolic work, saving calories and hence energy. In short, your rate of weight loss will slow down.

In fact, most two- to three-day crash diets that claim to burn fat only burn away metabolically active muscle tissue and actually hinder long-term weight loss. The same applies when skipping meals. When you eat a meal, overall metabolism is increased due to the energy required for digestion and absorption of the meal. Skipping a meal will have the reverse effect, decreasing the metabolism, which lasts until you eat something.

Overall, the body will then save - rather than burn - calories to ensure it has adequate energy during the times of fasting. So, meal skipping to avoid unwanted calories is a counterproductive method for sustained weight loss.

Consequences: When calorie levels are increased to a normal level, weight gain will be faster and the weight will come back as fat, since your metabolic rate has slowed, and you may even end up heavier than before you began dieting! The loss of muscle will have an effect on your ability to maintain weight loss in the long term, unless muscle is regained by exercising.

THIS IS SO TRUE.. =X mY friend that fasted a few months back ballooned =X

The safest, most sensible route to achieving long-term weight loss is adopting healthy eating habits, which endure long after the pounds have been lost. You'll also want to keep your metabolism revved up to burn calories rather than save them. This can be achieved by:

Having breakfast

A morning meal kick-starts your metabolism after your body has been deprived of food throughout the night. Skipping breakfast keeps your metabolism running slow and you will save rather than burn any calories you eat later in the day.

Snacking frequently

Eating smaller, frequent meals will keep your metabolism working throughout the day. Snacking also prevents you from becoming too hungry. The hungrier you are, the less control you have over what and how much you eat.

Exercising Cardio fitness activities (walking, jogging, swimming, cycling, aerobics, dancing) speed up your metabolism for several hours after your workout so additional calories will be burned off long after you stop moving.

Lifting weights This activity will build and tone muscle, which burns up to five times more calories than fat (even when your body is at rest). More muscle means more calories burned and more weight lost over time.

Eating according to your activities If you do most of your physical activity during the day, make breakfast and lunch larger meals so you have enough energy to get everything done.

Drinking plenty of water
Your metabolism needs water to function properly. Remember, the recommendation is 1-2 litres per day.

NOTE: Fasting and fad diets can be very dangerous for individuals with chronic conditions such as diabetes, coronary heart disease, liver or kidney disease, infection or pregnancy.



Body protein provides most of the energy needed during the first few days of a fast, but after that the body will adapt to using fat for energy in an attempt to preserve muscle.

Fat is then metabolised to ketones, which can be used by the brain for energy. However, prolonged inadequate carbohydrate intake results in the build-up of ketones, which become toxic, resulting in a condition called ketosis.

Consequences: The kidneys and liver become burdened with toxic waste from the breakdown of fat and muscle tissue and the body's normal functions are disrupted. Ketosis can cause fatigue, constipation, nausea and vomiting. The potential long-term side effects of ketosis include heart disease, bone loss and kidney damage.

In addition, the lack of calories will deprive your body of essential vitamins and minerals so hair, nails and skin will show signs of deterioration. Ironically, if you're using fasting as a means of detoxifying or cleansing the body, you will actually be achieving the opposite effect.


wow... Keep this in mind yah =X

I AM GRUMPY.
10:10 PM

hmm..i am going to fail everything.. LOL

yellow aura
Your aura shines Yellow!


What Color Is Your Aura?
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well... for those of you who know me better tell me what you think okay? lol

dfh
You're a "Blue Angel". You're a smarter
one than most and are the more logical than
anyone you know. You also have very strong
morals that you stick to through it all and
you'd stand up for whatever you believe in even
if no one else agrees. You're a little bit shy
around people but you love to be with lots of
people anyway. You have appreciation for things
like music or poetry or art. You yourself can
sing fairly well but you don't like to sing in
front of people. You're very thoughtful and
people love how creative you are. (If you can't see
tje pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)


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heh heh.. blue is nice =)

ex angel
You're like an angel. As everyone knows, angels
dwell in heaven. They were desribed as shining
ones wearing white and the idea that they have
wings is believed as well. Guardian angels are
the ones that many people think are dead loved
ones who try to protect the living friends or
family they have on Earth. They usually had
blonde hair and maybe brown with flawless
appearance and sweet dispositions. They were
cheerful, hopefull, selfless, loving, and kind.
Angels are the one mystical creature that a
majority of people truly believe in. Encounters
with angels are poping up all over the world
and reassuring people's beliefs in angels. (If
you cannot see the picture, go to my userpage
and look near the bottom. There should be the
picture and description for all the results)


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haha... getting entertained yet? =)

Man, this guy is obsessed with cars and sports, itÂ’s a miracle he even has time for you. Though, it is interesting that he could have more then half the girls in town and he sti
Man, this guy is obsessed with cars and sports, its
a miracle he even has time for you. Though, it
is interesting that he could have more then
half the girls in town and he still likes you
best. He might seem materialistic but deep down
inside he loves you with all his heart and
doesn't really notice you are slightly annoyed
or depressed that he always needs to talk about
cars. Thankfully, his friends often give him a
hit over the head when they notice he talked
only about cars while he walked you home.


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LOL.... MUST BE THE F4 SHOW LA =X i think too much about Dao Ming si LOLOLOL.. this IS funny =X

You are Silva, the most adorable character in this
story. You are happy-go-lucky, carefree,
ditzy, and cheerful. Your presence always
seems to bring life to the people around you.
Even if you are hurting, you grin and bear it
as you continue helping your friends. You are
definitely a true friend, and you coninually
prove that fact over and over again. We need
more people like you. You have power over the
earth and you have telekenetic abilities that
make you a more powerful goddess.

You do not have a personality disorder, you always
turn to your friends if you are feeling down.
Overall, you are just too cute, and ya know it!


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Some anime... why no naruto one =X LOL


I AM GRUMPY.
7:38 PM

Hey valz.. i think this the entry you wanted to look at? =) to protect the person's hmm identity i cannot publish the person's blog address.. but if u want to know you can just tell me i will give you the address.

(THIS POST IS NOT WRITTEN BY ME)

Today i was thinking about that Special One. You know, the one that you believe is the only one for you, the one that you'll never forget?

For me, i've never believed in Mr/Ms Right. I mean, even if (and that's a damn big IF) you find someone who fits in to your requirements of the Perfect One, you might not be the Ms/Mr Right for that person. So i've always thought that the probability of finding, and staying with, your Mr/Ms Right is damn small. Sure, i've had romances which i thought i'll never get over when it ends, and people that still mean damn much to me after all these years, but if i've learnt anything at all after all these years of fumbling in the love maze, it is this. Heartache always heals, and someone new will always come along.

I will never, ever, change myself for anyone just to make anyone stay by my side, cause i know (or rather i pray) that someone will come along in the future that will love me for who i am.

I had worn my heart on my sleeves before, getting myself hurt in the process, but i wouldn't change anything for the world. To those who had laughed at me, i laugh at you back, cause you know the cheap thrill of leading someone by the nose, soothing your ego, but you will never know how it feels to give your heart trully and honestly to someone else. Love is but a game to you, one that will never touch you. You have never risked, so you will never know

To those who have treated me like a game, i have learnt from the lesson, have grown wiser, have become stronger. I will never grovel, i will never beg. Thanks though for showing me that there are people on this earth who have no qualms about squashing someone's dreams, someone's heart. I will remember to be careful next time.

For the one that has me but yearns for someone else, I can get tired too, and there will come a day when i'm with you but yearning for someone else. When that day comes, there's nothing you can do about it, just like there's nothing i can do about it now, except to pray that you'll see how much i care, and to set your eyes on me, and me alone.



well... i wish anyway i guess i should be over getting myself sad and sick from tearing..... i guess sometimes friendship is just more precious. =)

I AM GRUMPY.
6:03 PM

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Well i am like posting so many things up today =\ at least it beats binging on food right zzzz..

Oh well just took a quiz.. guess i... haiz whatever.

How happy are you with your looks?

Miss super-confident

Men are drawn to you like bees to honey - or too intimidated to risk approaching you! You have a very positive view of yourself. Your clothes are stylish and fit you like a glove to show off that perfect body. In fact, you love yourself and everybody knows it!

You're confident, go-getting and may be somewhat of an exhibitionist. Some people might call you cocky, but those closest to you, know that your heart is in the right place. After all, it's not your fault that you were born beautiful.

wah really? =S

Yah before that i did a personality disorder test...

Disorder Rating Information

Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

Schizotypal

Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

ah LOL.........

Histrionic

People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Oh my GOd.... x__X.







I AM GRUMPY.
2:12 PM




Oh my god .. they are so cool =D x__X Erm you people know right they r the deejays of 98.7fm.. from left to right.. Grace, Daniel Ong, Jamie Yeo, Veron, Carrie Chong =P Perfect Ten rules ^^

I AM GRUMPY.
1:09 PM

Dr Barbara Wilson, nutritionist at eDiets, says: ‘Comfort or emotional eating - eating to avoid something or to fill a void - is all too common, especially among women.

While you might feel completely alone with this problem, you’re not. Even the princess of pop comfort eats. But whatever the problem, whether it’s relationship trouble, work or stress, food is not a solution.

The key to beating comfort eating is to find other ways to deal with the underlying problem. This might be taking a run to beat stress, keeping a journal of your feelings or turning to friends instead of food.’


Diet Coach Dr Judy Citron says: 'You can break the cycle by trying to get "comfort" in other ways. I’m not saying it’s easy because comfort eating has probably become a habit – almost a reflex.

It’s very available and it’s not expensive.' She says there are two steps needed to break the cycle – the first is to think long and hard about what the underlying cause may be, and the second is to work on breaking ingrained patterns.

Step 1: What's causing it?

Ask yourself: ‘What do you need comfort for?’ Dr Citron says: 'Starting with the underlying cause, question whether it’s loneliness, stress, anger or perhaps tiredness. All of those often trigger comfort eating and more.

Now think of a few activities that might lessen the trigger. If you’re angry you might write a letter (that you may never send) to get it off your chest. If it’s loneliness, plan (and carry out) one small first step that may bring you into contact with like-minded people.'

If your trigger is boredom, seek stimulation from an interest or activity, if it’s worry then share it rather than keeping it to yourself. If you’re sad, seek friends, company or entertainment.'

Step 2: Break ingrained patterns

Dr Citron says: 'Think about a habitual eating situation. Say you always buy a bar of chocolate when you fill up your car with petrol. You may hardly even be aware that you’re comfort eating, but if you do this automatically without even stopping to think whether you’re hungry, it’s probably a habit whose origins may have been a need for comfort.

You’ve forgotten the need and you’re left with the habit. Now break the process down into tiny steps and insert some new small action that will make you feel different at the till. For instance, you could take out your wallet while crossing your fingers (for luck). This will feel awkward and it will remind you as you pay that you have promised yourself not to buy the chocolate.'




Tips to beat comfort eating


Find interesting hobbies. These can help take your mind off food. You may find it useful to choose something that will occupy your mind and your hands, such as drawing.

Plan your meals each day. Many people eat to fill a void in their lives. If you diet you’ll know you’re eating when you should be, rather than because you’re lured into it by boredom or anxiety.

Replace junk food with low-fat treats or fruit. Remove the usual chocolates, crisps, biscuits or takeaways and choose fruit, wholemeal carbohydrates and foods such as low-fat yoghurts instead – far better if you find yourself straying. If you choose the right foods, you’ll have more energy and strength to deal with the overeating.

Be prepared for the urge to overeat. You’re not going to overcome your comfort eating overnight. Don’t give up if you don’t succeed one day. If you beat yourself up about it, the cycle will start all over again and you could easily find yourself turning to food to make yourself feel better.

I AM GRUMPY.
9:37 AM

The faster we’re falling,
We’re stopping and stalling
We’re running in circles again
Just as things we’re looking up
You said it wasn’t good enough
But still we’re trying
One more time
Maybe we’re just
Trying too hard
When really it’s closer
Than it is too far

'Cause I’m in too deep
And I’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head
Instead of going under
'Cause I’m in too deep
And I’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head
Instead of going under
Instead of going under

Seems like each time
I’m with you I loose my mind,
Because I’m bending over
Backwards to relate
It’s one thing to complain
But when you’re
Driving me insane
Well then I think it’s time
That we took a break

Maybe we’re just
Trying too hard
When really it’s closer
Than it is too far

'Cause I’m in too deep
And I’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head
Instead of going under
'Cause I’m in too deep
And I’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head
Instead of going under
Instead of going under
Instead of going under

I can’t sit back
And wonder why
It took so long for this to die
And I hate it when you fake it
You can’t hide it you might
As well embrace it
So believe me it’s not easy
It seems that
Something’s telling me

'Cause I’m in too deep
And I’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head
Instead of going under
'Cause I’m in too deep
And I’m trying to keep,
Up above in my head
Instead of going under
Instead of going under
instead of going under

Instead of going under again
Instead of going under
Instead of going under again
Instead of going under again

I AM GRUMPY.
9:05 AM

Showbiz dinners and the free champagne,
men in suits who think they know it all,
no-one knows me but they know my name
that's not real to me,
Hotel lobby to the aeroplane,
another country but they start to look the same
watch the world behind a window pane
that's not real to me,

when i see my babies run,
when all the madness has been and gone,
I'll raise my family and live in peace
now that's what's real to me
real to me

Dying flowers in a dressing room
a dangerous time to let your head make up it's own mind
got me thinking that the spirits flown
that's not real to me,

when i see my babies run,
when all the madness has been and gone,
I'll raise my family and live in peace
now that's what's real to me

Picnics in the garden
and the children they can play
the first day of the summer
and i laze here all the day
then we'll invite the family round
and drink some english tea
then i raise up my finger
and watch football on tv

yeah..ohh..

now that's what's real to me

when i see my babies run,
when all the madness has been and gone,
I'll raise my family and live in peace
now that's what's real to me
that's what's real to me
real to me

wake up you might be dreaming
wake up you might be dreaming, now

I AM GRUMPY.
9:01 AM

Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?


Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's
nothing left and the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?


Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

And when your down and feeling low,
just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else

Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday


Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

Fly
Forget about the reasons why you
can deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

Any moment everything can change


yup i am thinking of him again... this time it isn't about love...i just wish the best for him.. maybe my love brought to much pain to him? I wish for now he will feel at least a bit better.. i wish i could make all tha pain if i ever brought to you away.. i wish sometimes no one can be hurt by me..

I AM GRUMPY.
8:53 AM

Friday, October 08, 2004

Greetings Wendy Chan

Thank you for taking the test. Please bookmark this page, it will be available online for two weeks. You may also print a copy of each section for your records.

General statistics

Total number of questions: 30
Questions answered: 30
Questions not answered: 0
Questions answered correctly: 16
Questions answered incorrectly: 14
Percentage correct answers: 53 %

Your age adjusted IQ score is 104 and the average score for all test takers is 100.
You scored higher than 59 % of all the people that took this test.


LOL.. guess i am pretty dumb =
Grade Range Percent
Genius >144 0.13%
Gifted 130-144 2.14%
Above average 115-129 13.59%
Higher average 100-114 34.13%
Lower average 85-99 34.13%
Below average 70-84 13.59%
Borderline low 55-69 2.14%
Low <55 0.13%

Your Grade ** Higher Average **

Well done! Your performance on the test was above the population average which means that you have the ability to achieve success in life. Whatever you decide to do you have a powerfull mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a wide variety of ways. You are able to think critically and communicate very effectively and you also have the ability to handle most academic challenges. If you think of intelligence as an ability to adapt adequately in relatively new situations then you are heading in the right direction.



Mental abilities have the highest correlation with general intelligence of all objectively measurable abilities and they are the primary focus of this test. Furthermore the mental abilities targeted for measurement were specifically chosen because they have been shown to correlate highly to many other abilities. The graphs below show how you scored in various abilities such as pattern recognition and logical reasoning - skills which are all reliable predictors of academic achievement.



Strengths and weaknesses

Your highest score was in Spatial

Exceptional intelligence does not gaurantee results -- to achieve excellence you must fully understand your strengths and learn to maximize your efforts. Knowing your greatest intellectual strength may give you insight into how you can improve your learning process, work better with others, or become more self aware of your abilities. According to this test your spatial skills are the most developed of all your intellectual capabilitites - your capability to manipulate 3-D objects in space is your biggest strength.



Your lowest score was in Short Term Memory

Weaknesses are the roadblocks we face when trying to achieve our goals. Awareness of your weakness allows you to predict problems and find solutions ahead of time, thereby alleviating future headaches. According to this test your short term memory skills are the most under developed of all your intellectual capabilitites - your capability to retrieve facts and use them in solving problems is your biggest weakness.

Test yourself?

I AM GRUMPY.
11:57 PM





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