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Thursday, March 31, 2005


cannot believe it lor I mixed up my right eye with my left eye.. duh dunno still seh from what zz... so long never drink liao still so freaking blur... in the end the results supposed to be for right eye.. i say left eye haiz.... I hope Dawn can be kind hearted a bit bah dun give too low marks... if not get C very yucky haha....

Found out her Bday on December leh... cannot believe it she is Sagittarius sia... oh my god... all along =\ But she seems nice at times leh.. like when i talked to her I feel like quite okay lor.. but haiz everyone is telling me she smile smile but aiyah inside got knife hiding..

Not in a very good mood bah... my english seems so gabbra today so singlish I myself read also feel like puking zz.....

And these days dunno why so suay lately lor... fell down in bathroom on Tuesday and my butt still hurts the spine there bah below zzz.. when I bend i feel like an INvalid lor... and then I also cut my finger? and now still haven recover feel like missing one finger heh...

And i think i grew fatter haha... eat too much these few days bah too many tests stressing me out always wanting to find something to munch .. hehs emotional eating...wun do me good I wonder if got any way to counter my actions lol on snacking on food....

what a sucky time of the year sia... grew fatter + tests sucked... lol luckily sometimes yandao cheer me up if not maybe i will be banging my head on the wall everynow and then....

And people really do appreciate what you have because... when something is really gone... then is too late for regrets le ...

3:19 PM

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Your Reading
This reading is based on —
Birth Name: Wendy Chan Mei Ling
Birth Date: 11/24/1983 (November 24, 1983)

Your Inner or Soul's Urge: This is spiritual and emotional expression more than physical. It is your heart-felt desires, your incentive, how you look at life. Here are your areas of personal satisfaction. Number: 9

You yearn to serve the world; to "broadcast" your self, your talents, and your emotions; and to give the benefits of your knowledge and experience to all. You dream of a world with understanding, harmony, and trust as the norm.

Many find you attractive. Although you can have an impersonal attitude, many people dearly Love you. You are compassionate and impressionable. Because you have boundless faith in your own source of supply, you tend to give of yourself without thought about your own impoverishment.

You have the innate wherewithal to be an inspired artist, poet, inventor, or psychic; you have accurate and intuitive prophetic abilities, and desire to use your talents for universal benefit.

To be a more effective humanitarian, be more definite in your thoughts and actions and acquire more control over your emotions.

Your Personality: This is physical expression more than spiritual or emotional; your outer self, the way you express when meeting others. It may or may not be the real you. Number: 4

Others tend to see you as loyal, dedicated, dignified, and honest with a desire to perform the work at hand instead of taking a lot of time for fun and pleasure. You seem to be thrifty, prudent, and orderly.

If you focus overly much on work, others tend to see you as someone in a rut and unable to change habits.

Your self-image can suffer if you do not receive compensation or praise, at least recognition, for your labors.

The practical aspects of your personality can be enhanced by wearing tailor-made clothing of straight lines and good material, neat rather than showy.

Your Quiescent Self: Stripping away all outside influences, aspirations, ambitions, "shoulds", and "shouldn'ts" -- this is you when you are alone; just you and your dreams.. Number: 4

Family, society, country, and civilization are better off because of your tireless efforts and meticulous attention to detail. You are the pillar of society. A staunch patriot. Your rewards are accomplishment, duty, Love, and appreciation.

Your thoughts and pleasure are the creation of firm foundations upon which family and society as a whole can prosper.

Your Destiny or Ultimate Goal: This is your desired lifetime accomplishment. It is a key to a useful and happy life, and to feeling fulfillment during your latter days. Number: 4

You are a builder, a manager and organizer to build solid foundations and structures that last for your and others' security. This applies to all work you undertake.

Rather than just dreaming, you strive for tangible results. Your success depends much upon your personal determination, sincerity, perseverance, patience, and honesty.

You are systematic, methodical, trustworthy, dependable, and effective; a craftsman, a builder, and an organizer slowly and surely building for the future. You are solid yet durable, precise, and dignified. When you have a definite goal, you are persistent until it is reached.

You know the value of a job well done.

Your Life's Path: Here are clues to what fate has in store for you. It indicates the type of encounters, events, and opportunities you are likely to experience along your physical life path. Number: 11

You are drawn to movements or organizations with idealistic aims. You have a tendency to become caught up in fanatical cults or other fringe movements. Your path includes diplomacy in its various aspects -- smoothing the affairs of others with discretion, tact, intuition, cooperation, patience, persistence, persuasion, and loyalty to those you serve; being the peacemaker, cultivating friendships, and helping others reach their goals. Your path is easier when you express kindness and gentleness and are considerate of others' feelings.

Your path includes developing your talents of invention, seeking the discovery of new principles, and elevating everything to the plane of inspiration. If you decide to investigate the psychic, healing, and metaphysical fields, you will be able to put them to their highest use. Trust your intuitions. Inspire by your own example. You can effect more change through persuasion than by force.

Your opportunities are along spiritual lines or in the realms of invention, metaphysics, politics, or acting. You are liable to achieve great public attention and influence if you do not seek them from ulterior motives. You do well helping others reach their goals.

This Year's Path: Here is what you are likely to encounter this year -- your feelings, your predominant perspective, and the type of situations, circumstances, and opportunities you tend to attract during the calendar year. Number: 6

This is a year of service for you, a duty year. You feel you're assuming new responsibilities. People make more demands of you this year. You are needed in many directions.

Warmth and good will toward others, along with love and harmony, will make everything worthwhile. Justice, fair play, and honesty are important. It is a year for unselfish service.

Take care of your health because without it you cannot help others. Find time for rest and relaxation. This is a year to be thorough and conscientious about everything that you do.

It is a year of fine and friendly influence for marriage, tranquil home conditions, and traditional family activities. You may feel a strong desire to get settled.

Next Year's Path. Number: 7

This is your year for personal reflection and perfection, a year of introspection. You feel like analyzing everything you have been and are doing. You think about beauty, love, perfection, and what life is all about.

You spend a good deal of time alone, getting acquainted with yourself and your new inner power. This year you gain a better understanding of your emotions and your spiritual nature. Take time out to rest, study, read, and travel, and to look at life from a different angle. Find outlets for personal creative expression.

If you have psychic, spiritual, new age, or mystic interests, this is the year to pursue those studies.

Quality is your standard.

Heh want to take a look at your numbers? =P

5:40 PM


I got to lose weight =\

11:37 AM

FRIDAY, March 25 (HealthDay News) -- Canadian researchers say they've found a way to help 'finger' men with physically aggressive personalities.

A University of Alberta study finds that measuring a man's index finger length relative to his ring finger length predicts his predisposition to being physically aggressive.

The shorter the index finger relative to the ring finger, the higher the amount of prenatal testosterone and the more likely the man will be physically aggressive, they researchers say.

In a prepared statement, study co-author Dr. Peter Hurd admitted he initially thought the finger-aggression link was "a pile of hooey," until he reviewed the data.

According to the researchers, experts have known for a hundred years that the index-to-ring finger length ratio of men differs considerably from that seen in women. And more recently, research has suggested that the length of men's fingers changes depending on their exposure to testosterone in the womb.

Now, finger length and physical aggression seem to be linked as well, at least in men. The Alberta team found no such link in women.

"More than anything, I think the findings reinforce and underlie that a large part of our personalities and our traits are determined while we're still in the womb," Hurd said.

The study, reported in the March issue of Biological Psychology, found no correlation between finger lengths and non-physical forms of aggression, such as verbal aggression or angry or hostile behavior. Hurd said he is continuing his research on physical aggression, however, by comparing hockey players' finger lengths to the number of penalty minutes they rack up in a given season.

In another study, to be published later this year, Hurd found that men with more "feminine" finger ratios tended to be more prone to depression.

He stressed that "finger lengths explain about 5 percent of the variation in these personality measures, so research like this won't allow you to draw conclusions about specific people. For example, you wouldn't want to screen people for certain jobs based on their finger lengths."

"But finger length can tell you a little bit about where personality comes from, and that's what we are continuing to explore," he said.

heh... cool right =P

1:00 AM

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Oh man today was such a drag... had to study my contact lens fitting module test.. in the end I skipped Monica's class cause anyway we just had to get back test papers she had long taught finish her lectures.. haha

The test was so so I guess.. but i made a few dumb mistakes here and there... hope at least overall module can get a B bah.. I HATE Cs..zzz

Was on the way home when Yandao called me and suggested for a meal tommorrow... but well class ends early tommorrow and have to study BAsic statistics test... so i suggested we meet today instead =P

Heh! Just the right time! Kinda need a hug from him =D Maybe he read my mind =X

SO I hanged around Lot one a while and he arrived pretty soon.. lol I already grabbed a stack of "bimbo" magazines and was like flipping through the second magazine when he called =P

We had Ajisen Ramen =P
First time ate this 0.o

I had Seafood ramen... wanted to take a picture of his Volcano ramen.. but he stopped me lol.. we were taking a pretty long time taking pics =X oh well...


haiz.. lol but the meal was really good.. thanks Yandao even though i grew fatter again haha X___x

and really wishing everyone get pass the rainy days..I believe the rainbow is there all along... we just need the clouds to clear up yah =)

12:07 AM

Monday, March 28, 2005

pure angel
You are an angel!
You are sweet, kind, and gentle.
You are sensitive and can be hurt easily.

What is your inner magical being??? lots of results and all that good stuff!!!!!
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9:19 AM

Sunday, March 27, 2005


?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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Heh VOdka haha....

By the way I am just too bored....

Quiz Galore haha...

You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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bleah i took this quiz before -___-" and there is such thing as perfect? 0.o I think i need more lessons in life -__-"

You are beautiful because of the pure, sensitive,
good hearted, unexperienced vibe you give out.
You most likely haven't done much such as sex,
drugs , and alcohol. If you have you were
probably just experimenting out of pure
curiousity. Your curiousness may lead to danger
if you cannot control it! People like to be
around you because of your young personality.
You like to have fun and be happy. You are well
liked by most people but some may find you
slightly immature. Don't let people bring you
down, for you are a wonderful and beautiful

Please Rate or message me! Thank you for taking my
quiz! XoXo <3 Lana

You're Beautiful...but why? ( PICS)
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0.o haha yah I am a kid still playing maple when i over 21 le haha =|

In your eyes, people see kindness... You're just
so... so... so... Sweet! You're kind and love
to give others in need, a helping hand. You're
pretty shy but can be warm and friendly towards
those you know, and those who know you best.
Your sanctuary would just be any place that is
warm, cozy, and inviting to all people. You
love to show signs of affection to your lover
but a small simple talk does the trick as well
;) Sadly, your kindness can be used to your
disadvantage. People can use you, and take
advantage over your sweet and sensitive
mind.... But fear not! With you being so kind
and generous, people look up to you and adore
you ^-^ No one would dare hurt you because they
can't bear the thought of your sweet smile
turning into a frown :)

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Okie i am tired >.<

11:26 AM

You like the sweet, shy type.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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=D lol =PpPpPp

8:23 AM

Oh well..feel kinda tired but wanted to blog out today's events because it was quite a nice day.. oh well eventually it ended nicely anyway =P

lolz started out the day pretty blur...

I was supposed to meet my class gers at 11am to collect my year three lab coats around somerset that area... but I was so blur dunno what happen to my brain cells still sleeping I guess..

I should be out of house around 9.30am so I have like at least one and an half hr to reach Somerset by train..but silly me -__-"" Left house at 10.30am and when Yandao ask me.. eh no need to go out le?? at around 9 plus am.. i still replied.. still early ma I going out at 10.30am..

OMG my brain cells practically die out on me lor... zzz

Luckily I ask Irene to help me get the gers to go first but in the end I took bus down and they were still busy finding the location and so I called Mrg Ng to find the exact location =P yeap got the expensive coats haha my $36 bucks gone just like that zzz...

Ha Ha.. G didn't came as usual =\ ask Irene to help her collect.. zzzz

Anyway after chatting with the Nice lady who made our coats... I went to Burger King with Bev and AiLing... heh heh the 2 crazy gers =P

AT first I thought i won't have much to talk about la.. cos early in morning brain still not yet awake but in the end we all talked like there was no tommorrow =P
Heh heh these two gers really perk me up lor we were talking mainly about BGR.. heh heh gers talk... kinda fun.. =) Then Irene and her bf Colin joined us at crapping around =D

After having much fun and crapping... I met Yandao heh! He finally came! =D
We went ard to Hereen... then went to eat very nice chicken rice..haha forget to mention it has been like dunno since last year or so I did not eat chicken rice le =X

TOok a nice picture =X in his Hp..

ANyway haha the very blur me had to trouble Yandao to bring me to international Building to go check out my attachment place.. ulu like ghost house -__-""

Hmm went around shopping and saw....a very cute dog..

Tried shopping for shoes but no luck.. I got BIG FEET =(

In the end rented dvds.. taxi and Date with Tad Hamilton to watch with yandao =P
Heh Taxi was a nice show =PPpPPpp Had good company too mah :D

We had Long JOhn silvers =P I am crazy over LJS.. lolz

And sweet Yandao bought me a necklace with a pair of earrings =D

*HUGS HUGS* Thanks Yandao =D for accompanying me the whole day =P I know you are pretty tired le... really get some good sleep on a Sunday okies... HOpe you have sweet dreams =D and yups I believe he is already in Zzz Land now =PpPP


2:28 AM

Saturday, March 26, 2005

lol please dun ask em why I am still awake seriously i dun know... just cannot sleep??! dots....

I just have the feeling of changing my life.. get rid of my fats.. lol.
What's with me?

I dunno probably too stress....
Trying to escape reality of life
and end up eating more than usual?
haha no wonder fats keep coming up to me...

yah I need will power...
Should just start from drinking more water first heard that more water is needed to keep your skin in good condition..

LOl I am stop going to talk about fats lor... cos saying is pointless..
and at the lazy state I am in now... I dunno how am i going to get rid of my fats..
Wish I won 4d and can go for a Marie france package.


4:06 AM

Ha Ha yah friday is just over like that good Friday I cannot believe it myself lor... zzz

Oh well did nothing much today haha was supposed to study Rajeev's test but ended up going out lolz... please dun ask me how am i going to survive next week.....

And haiz tommorrow still have to go down to SOmerset there to collect the Coats for year three clinic man.. =\ so troublesome lol..

I went out with Yandao,YH,XN and Pat.. ha ha Pat was forced to come join us =P but oh actually I did do something today haha Learnt how to play bridge kinda fun but I am still pretty bad in it guess the more You play the better =P It is supposed to be like a thinking game =P

Went to eat sushi too.. had yummy swordfish again =D though it wasnt as fresh.. can tell ma not that sweet It was still okie =D

Played a bit of pool too ha ha I still sucked at it... most of the time i think I "tyco" the ball in lor... but never mind practise makes perfect right =P I shall master the skill one fine day...

haha reminds me that day I saw my classmate playing pool at Paradiz centre... in the end he keep telling me that day in Miss M's test... eh your words write bigger okie then I treat you go play pool lol..X__x

1:30 AM

Friday, March 25, 2005

You are the Spirit of Innocence. Always with the
sweet smile of a child, you know how to have
good clean fun, you have a natural vunerability
about you, which makes you able to make friends
very well, as they are drawn instinctively by
the urge to protect you. But even though you
look as fragile as a child inside you are very
strong with your easy look on life. When you
get a partner (because there is no way you
cant!) your life will be perfect.

Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!)
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Back from nice movie "Jian Gui 10"
Kinda funny and scary at certain parts... to me the show was quite worth it =P

12:11 AM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

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Okie let's face it ger... you cant lose weight by just typing it out here... all you are going to get are just finger cramps..

bleah =S

5:33 PM

Heh heh...


Haha Cannot believe my luck.. I did not really study for Miss D's test and I am so lucky.... She only came out topics which i studied and looked through... the previous topics were all not in the long questions =D

Yeap means 40% of my module is saved.. yeah I made some small mistakes here and there but at least I know I can graduate to year three safely and do my year three clinic =D

Her module is a pre-requisite to the year three clinic practise meaning if u fail her module you cannot take next sem's clinic module HENG AH!! Wee...

I am so freaking happy right now..
I even walked all the way from CCK back to Segar =D

Heh cannot wait for tonight ^^
going to catch a ghost show with Yandao =P yeap Eye Ten should be kinda scary hope the producer of the show dun dissapoint us =PpPPpp

And by the way My liason officer for my attachment is Dr Tang.. who is kinda nice and friendly =P so maybe my attachment will not be that bad after all.. he is one of those lecturers that are quite concern about students ^^


12:59 PM

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

heh heh saw this quiz from YH's blog =P

nature girl
You are a nature loving anime girl.You love all
types of animals and care for them.You are a
calm person and love to have people around.You
love to be outside just admiring your
surroundings and playing with the animals that
are around.Now just if you keep loving the
nature pretty soon everyone is going to copy
you maybe i'm really not sure.But do what you
do best and it will soon pay off ^_^

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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Haha.. all anime girls are that chio =X if only i can be so slim! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Yah... i think I should go on diet again LOL....
But now with too many things piling up i think i am suspectible to fatness

Yah I hate being fat...
I should control my eating....
Maybe I am a bit haywired these days too lol... hate all the freaking tests...

I have a lot of new plans after all my freaking tests and exams are over.

1) LOse weight... Why is this always on my list...zz
2) be more positive... I thought I already am but i need to keep my head clear I guess...
3) Learn Learn learn... yah my attachment is going to be at some Eye centre... I better make the best out of this and learn as much as I can...
4) Quit snacking.... Yah cos It just brings me back to why I need to go back to my first plan if i dun stop this
5) drink more water =D
6) maybe eat less bread? I think it is the sole cause of my fatness..lol
7) be more patient... with everyone especailly my family members....
8) STUDY HARD LOR........ haiz lolz....i still have year three to go through =/
9) heh! it is a secret.. ^^

6:37 PM

oh just kill me..

Why did we need to have her test this Thursday..so much freaking much to study by the time i finish one chapter i think i forget the information on the previous chapter.

Yes i am going to die so badly this time.
Well you won't understand.
Lately my mind has just been going on in circles.. it seems so hard for me to absorb the information in my notes especially...

When did this happen.. dunno for quite some time le
Whatever happen to my brain
Maybe it is stress i dunno

All I know is I am getting fat too.
oh my god
I hate exams and tests
They just make me fat and stress..

burn my notes please.

10:02 AM

Monday, March 21, 2005

Just thought maybe you guys want to try out yr typing speed at this web page ...

I am still pretty bad in typing need to improve my typing speed by much more.

YOUR RESULTS ARE:Number of words typed: 116
Test duration: 3 min
Speed: 38.7 words/min. (193 keystrokes/min.)
Error penalty: 7
Accuracy: 94.0%

7:52 PM


Oh well.. did some pretty dumb mistakes in Miss M's test today haha.... my brain is not still working very well... =(

Hmm.. =\ Just printed out my report finally I think this is the last of reports for this ending term =)

My thoughts are all in a mess right now.. did not have a good sleep last night as I was trying very hard to squeeze BV facts into my head.. well.. was pretty weird keep falling asleep and waking.. geesh what a bad way to study...
Pray hard i dun do too bad for this test =/

But actually what bothers me more is the test on Thursday.. It makes up like 40% of the module.. freaking so much to study... and now I am still resting.. -__-""

Thinking about the past few days suddenly have the idea of like why everyone is so glum these few days.. oh well basically we are going into our third year le.. with that comes clinic and trust me it is stressful.. haha... Dun even want to imagine what it is going to be like...

Maybe too stress can make me slim down then i Don't mind =P especially on clinic days heard that you dun have much time to eat... needless to say I bet I wun have much appetite..

And i got to read up a bunch of past years stuff during my ITP period to make sure that I am prepared for the clinic stuff in year three... sigh.. =/


Ha.. everyone agrees.. basically The weekend everyone was slacking away... I guess tests should never be put on a Monday.. no one has the moood to study trust me on that.

Poor Irene.. almost fainted in the toilet after her Amore session and she has quite a deep cut on her knee.. Apparently she struggled while only being able to see "whiteness" and somehow got her knee injured..

So ke Lian =\ But at least her bf is accompanying her to see doctor today heh heh May not be that bad for her after all =X

Been pretty weird these days..
I know I am stressed...
somehow seem to eat a lot ..

7:17 PM

Sunday, March 20, 2005


Heh so fast 12.13am le Sunday always comes that fast =|

went to meet Yandao at ard 12pm =P
Ha ha was a bit late >.< Sorry!! yandao

WAs having some sort of promotion at Lot 1?
They were advocating healthy lifestyle? Lolz.. free diet coke weee.. my favourite drink NO calories one... lol..

Dunno maybe the diet coke date expiry also reaching soon lolz....
But was nice drink for such a hot day =P

Bought yummy long john silvers... and rent dvds.. to watch lolz.. Wimbeldon and the Ghost...
Main purpose of watching Wimbeldon was that i love Kirsten Dunsten's legs and she is so pretty.. =D haha shallow me... but I envy her nice legs ^^

FOrgotten that i watch the Ghost before lolz.. I think hong send me the movie before ... but it is nice =P watching movies and slacking away at home.. ahh.. =P

Nice simple Saturday... was kinda relaxing and comfortable =D
and i enjoyed myself =P

Oh well short weekend dun ever wanted Monday to arrive that soon =( freaking many tests coming lol... =~~~(

12:18 AM

Saturday, March 19, 2005

You scored as Rinoa Heartilly. Hopeful, naive, optimistic. You tend to look on the bright side and feel that everything that happens has a purpose and will turn out okay in the end. You try to look for ways around conflict, and when it is unavoidable you feel lost and left behind. Cheer up though, there is more to you than meets the eye.

Zell Dincht


Rinoa Heartilly


Ward Zabac


Laguna Loire


Squall Leonheart


Kiros Seagill


Irvine Kinneas


Quistis Trepe


Edea Kramer


Selphie Tilmett


Seifer Almasy


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6:39 AM

Friday, March 18, 2005

Er.. Oh my god it is so freaking late le....

lolz i got practical test today this morning at 8am...


ERms was in a pretty foul mood this afternoon because of something.. dots family lor >.< I got an evil mum.. yups she dresses like a witch =P ... she's got a broomstick somewhere and well the black cat has already died =|....haha shall not elaborate further..

Felt much better now after completing what can be done about Dawn's report and studying for my pract test ... Ha time for bed =P weee.. and to have dreams of my =P ^^

1:25 AM

Wednesday, March 16, 2005


I thought that today would be a bad day.. well
things were kinda unsmooth this morning but anyhows =)
I manage to get by....

Went to collect the notes before proceeding to do the neurovision training with dread.. lol dunnno what good it has done to my eyes I dun think it will lor.. just strain my eyes further...

a picture of my hand and pam's hand being bandaged with the cute purple band...

Anyway lolz.. It was just me and HN but we manage to drag Irene and Pam along with us =P Kinda fun... Ohz.. i am talking about donating blood =P

Surprisingly my blood pressure was kinda low 100/60... with the high amount of salt intake i have in my diet I thought i got high blood pressure haha...=X

And my haemoglobin count was like 120 or something... which was also kinda border line.... but the doctor say i can donate as long as i took a drink before i donate =P

Oh well ..

the doctor say i look like 16 or 17 weeee... LOL
Yup one comment like this can make me happy lol.....
cos i am getting so old...

Mr Tan was so bad lol... when i mentioned to him that me and HN going to donate blood so we left class early since he taught finish le he say donate ah next time will always go back donate de.. lol

Then we all shout "Mr TAN!" =S

Anyway maybe people dun find it fearful and since we are doing a good deed... so no harm I guess.. I wonder if donating blood makes you fat =X If it does .... *WAHHHH* =~~~(

5:33 PM

I am starting to hate the weather..

At first when someone mention to me maybe it is the weather's fault...so freaking hot these days..

I was still thinking cannot be lah how is it that the hot weather can make everyone so glum...

Now I kinda believe it..
Geesh Hot weather I just feel like hibernating at home lor...
I still got Maths class later and I cannot skip school..
Everything seems so draggy these days..

I dun want to say this but my friends keep repeating this in front of me..

I Haven reach that stage yet..
I guess i just need a new hobby or something..
With all the stupid workload coming your way you want new hobby?
Crazy ger.

I dunno but life is more to than just getting good grades right?
but i dun want to end up with Cs in my paper geesh..

I need to have new motivation...
I need to lose weight..
serious =|
but i am so freaking lazy these days..
Is it laziness??
I dunno I just dun have the mood to do anything.. yah that sickening feeling of dread.

9:59 AM

I cannot believe it...

I was so tired since.. dunno when..
The last thing i recall was doing some of my report then i fell asleep on sofa... oh my god when i woke up it was already like reaching 6am in the morning =(

I didn't know I was that tired =(
Was supposed to study my BV test haiz =(

And SUpposed to lose weight but i think recently I just became fatter =|

LIfe is kinda sucky at times =/

Wish everyone would be more happier =\ maybe rooster year is kinda bad year . bleah.

5:58 AM

Monday, March 14, 2005

hmm.. ha ha

I still feel so sleepy and tired.. =i wish i can sleep for another 2 days more continuously...
Dunno why haven felt this sleepy for a long time but seriously I just feel like i dun want to do anything Just carry on sleeping..

Maybe I played too much these few days.. lolz dunno just feel exhausted somehow.. lol thinking about school stuff makes me even more sleepy... lol but i did Rajeev's tutorial le.. like half the questions dunno how to do ha ha never mind he will go through later in class.. dunno what to perk my life up..

I should be making most out of my life now...
I should be jogging.. exercising... something...
Lol... But I am just dunno lazy?
I still dun feel very good these few days....
The Pms feeling i guess... but should not be leh....

So emotional these days.. lolz
crazy ger.

SOmetimes feel like flying away..
I want to go somewhere see the sunrise.... see the sunset....
get the cool breeze blowing by my face...
watch the birds fly past....

Then as night settles in....
Look at the stars...

Ha ha =)
Talking about stars... You know the spot outside Lot 1 near the macdonald's... If you notice carefully sometimes there are a lot of stars there....
It's beautiful...

Maybe it's the beer on Saturday... or the Jack daniel's I feel so stoned...
Wish i can stone away. Just seriously stare and dun think lol
Maybe it's just my brain telling me it needs a break been thinking so much lately maybe it is tired....

maybe i should starve myself and cleanse my soul....
haha yah right...
*drinking dao suan my mum cooked*

... I wonder if my brain were to be dissected and if it was possible to see what thoughts my brain held.. I think mine would be an ultra messy one...
One minute laugh next minute cry....
And beneath all hides fear love lost hope joy madness...

and maybe the most major portion would be = " how the freak am i going to slim down"

madness madness....
I think i really need to cleanse my soul.

Dun ask me how I am going to do it....>.<

Maybe will listen to very very soothing music continuously for hours straight without thinking anything.

And maybe even belt ths songs out loudly..with no one around of course.

9:24 AM

Sunday, March 13, 2005

“You can honour the past and you can remember the past. You can even love it. But you can’t live in it.”

Hmm.. just got this quote from some where .. it seems to make sense doesn't it?

5:04 PM

ha... Sunday again.. time really flies =|

Something was wrong with me last night lolz... I went to Devil's Bar with Yandao, XN and YH.. and seriously it was a lot of fun with the live band performance...

But somehow when the song started Maroon Five's This Love.. haha i dunno what happen to me.. some tears fell? Maybe it was just stress... after being asked like a million questions about what happened to me and my ex... especially in school ever since my friends saw pictures of me with yandao...

I dun know what is wrong
yah i dun love my ex anymore.. but the past scars are just there i guess.. It's like suddenly all the horrid feelings rushed out again... but Maybe i am just too emotional maybe I am afraid... after all my heart was shattered so badly in the past... and at times i wonder if my heart can take anymore hurt..

And suddenly the question really came to my mind.. I dun even go club last time why am i like so crazy over it now.. seriously i think i wanted to forget about the freaking past so badly... and just dance the nights away.. I guess that was my first reason out for starting to club.

But i think now the reason mainly is I enjoyed it quite a lot.. after all it's a great workout with no boring Push-UPs or sit Ups.. and the music USUALLY makes me happier...

And going to club with Yandao has been always made me happy...
And he was so nice to accompany me out to rest.. to hear me talk things out...and he bought green tea for me..

He is such a sweet and sensitive guy... and frankly I am glad when JZ said that other girls felt he was more quiet and just different... seriously I think I am so lucky to find him being cool.. if not I would have missed out on such a wonderful guy...

He has just got this charisma that i somehow am attracted to :D

^^ Yah live life with no regrets.. I dun have any =P right till now I have felt that every experience in my life is a learning step. No matter how much hurt .. pain anger sorrow.... all was worth it cause without this experiences I would not be the me today... and franky I like the way I am now (except of my fatness.. LOL )... being able to enjoy life as I take things as they come.

Some of my friends have gone through much more than me and I am glad they know how to be strong and take life for what it is..

I just want people around me to be happy...
especially you I hope I brought happiness into your life too. =P Yah you should know I am talking about you right. =)

And though it has been months... I have never felt happier..
*hugs* *hugs*


9:38 AM

Friday, March 11, 2005

yes i feel fat again serious.. maybe too much of stress these days.. keep chewing things.. like sweets.. dunno how long since i no jog le bleah..

ughz.. k now i feel stress about studies and stress about being fat.

i hate being a girl...

pract test zz..

6:24 AM

Thursday, March 10, 2005

i feel weird..

dun ask me why.. just cannot describe... maybe just lately too many things happened.. in school outside... i dun even feel like staying at home...
but haha where else to go right... i feel like running away lol...as if i can haha everything is starting to pile up...

I just found out...
next next weeks i am going to go mad haha.. yah almost continuously everyday got tests?? either is theory or pract test.... will i die haha we will see....
Mon monica test.... thursday dawn test and pract test.... mon Rajevv test... tues rajeev pract test and maybe miss lek theory test.... then wed maths stats test... thurs dawn pract test... friday miss Lek slide test...

Who the freak say studying in poly is easy WHAT THE HELL.

Ha and after all this freaking test i got two more major exams then we all can die in ITP weee..... life in poly is super fun man.

And as if life cannot get anymore worst... some sickening people have to make it worst yes worst....

I wrote a whole lot of chunk but i decided to erase it all cos i see no point in saying things about certain idiotic guys.. cos there will be forever jerks and scumbags on the surface of the earth no matter how much i despise them and hate them... geesh it is getting too tiring to hate idiots like that.

Trust me go spend your time on something more worthwhile...
seriously i rather turn my hatred into other feelings... lolz...

haha dunno what the hell is wrong with me.. yes i used hell two times.. consider it three now.. haven been using it for a long time.. maybe too many sweets make me edgey.. maybe too many things make me a bit tired at times....

God la all your fault... geesh... you make things on earth till so complicated till we dunno how to solve ourselves then we have to seek you to obtain enlightenment =|
geesh dun get me wrong I am not ANTI CHRISTIAN.. I Just feeling @%#$@%^$#^@% and need to utter absolute rubbish... ha ha please please dun get offended by my nonsensical ramblings....

please wish me luck for my practical test tomorrow.. and whoops don't mean to scold you haha .. i still want to get good grades for my BV pract tomolo.. okie god?? =P thanks ah!! =P

10:34 PM

hmm.. well.. It is Thursday already time flies...

Went to chat with YH and XN at lot one today had a game of pool too.. but i sucked pretty bad... Yandao was pretty tired X__x sorry in the end you came along even though u were sleepy =|*Hugs Hugs*

Was i tired?
okie bah haha I should be sleeping I guess.. but cannot really sleep ...
Also not sure why... Maybe slept too much the other night...

god if u heard me that time hope you are listening to me now....
pray everything goes okie for my friends and I and i wish we all will be one happy bunch.

And lastly to my "slimming god".... WHEN U MAKING ME SLIM DOWN! >.< I am a devout follower of YOurs... keep me slim okie!

Yah I go a bit insane at times... you have to get used to my complexing and unexplainable character..

maybe too much sweets is a bad choice...
I seriously dun want to get any diabetes or kidney failure..
think i have been taking too much salt lately ...
been getting headaches.. like more and more common X____x

12:47 AM

Monday, March 07, 2005

Ha ha Nice rose right =P

Yah I like it a lot.. and surprisingly it is still quite alive in my bedroom.. I think Yandao bought it on last last Saturday....


Had a pretty short day in school was basically collecting back test paper day =| Ha ha did so so for my Binocular vision test.. 67.5/79 and my contact lens fitting test got 37/50 only =X wahahaha oh well =/ Guess it is really time to stop clubbing.. lol the drinks make me lose my memory......... >.<

I guess we all had a pretty fun weekend...

I:" I reach home ard 2am on Friday leh...."
PS:" Wa so late I reach home ard 1 am plus too..."
Me:" OMg you all play till so late... eh I reach home ard 3 am plus.. "

Then we all burst out laughing =D
=X wahahahahah We all play till so late.. or should i say early in the morning =D

Anyway here are some pictures I took in maple =P

This is Jason 0.0...
Always telling me he level twenty something when he long long ago reach level 40 plus le

Junnie... She went to suntan too much and looks very tanned now...

heh Heh Her fire arrow looks cool right......

8:38 PM


Cannot believe that I actually woke up at ard 6.30am today =|
Haha Today my class is at one pm lor =P envious? >.<

I wanted to drag my sleepy body back to sleep.... but I wanted to finish up my reports.. and TA DA~! =X I finished up Monica's report and Dawn's report le =P Heh heh.. Anyway this Friday is Monica's pract test =/ DOts dots...

Now i feel kinda sleepy.. i think I just hate afternoons.. weather is so freaking hot and we all end up sweating like pigs =| Night times are so much more cooling lor =P

Oh Well... Went to career fair yesterday... CAREER FAIR LEH. But in the end lolz... more to like education fair.. I guess it is interelated after all..

Was with Pat and Yandao... So many people =.=... yah halfway walking through got this disgusting old man talk to me from behind "YUCKS" I was looking at the woman's weekly Magazine booth thinking whether i could get a copy a not..then suddenly like got someone push me from behind...

Then i turn over look got this old man around thirty plus...he was saying " kan shen me ah.. zhuo mo zhan zai ze li.." I almost puke blood did not even want to answer. Yes he does look like some old ti ko pek.. I quickly scan around to see where Yandao they all were at... I think they were a bit caught up with some financial advisor people stuff >.<


Anyway managed to get hold of a copy of the magazine =P haha was febuary's edition.. and before we officially left =X Went to took another CLEO magazine... yes Bimbo magazines.. haha feeding my brain with trash these days =|

Met up with Jas to have dinner and we had the yummy Wan ton noodles? Because Jas keep mentioning how delicious the fried wanton is.. this time round i noticed yah.. actually it does taste better than the usual fried wantons outside. SO crispy.. and Dry Does not have oil soaking up that much...

Went to have a short game of pool afterwards... =P haha i was pathetic practically could not hit any of the balls... X___x

Heh heh Jas played well! so did Pat... And Yandao!! U hit in so many balls at once! WA! >.< I CANNOT MAKE IT... lol I was the worst there =X

And Singapore is so small.. I actually saw L from next class a few tables away.. wanted to call him but was not that sure... In the end he wave to me first .. wahahahhaa =X

And well reached home ard 11 plus lol....

Was playing maple and something funny happened... X___x no comments.

10:37 AM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Omg lor..

I went clubbing again last night.. lolz

Anyway I had such a fun Friday.. at school and after school lol... Maybe life Is cool at times =)

had lots of fun talking to AL, Pam and the rest of the gers we were so crazy lolz... Laughing and crapping.. geesh I am going to miss them so much when i graduate =~~(

Lolz.. Mr Tan let us take a look at our results today =X I got 73/100 surprising =X tot i fail lolz... nine pple fail ard half my class lol my class got 19 people.

highest was like 88 i think =| HN so clever! lolz

My test for Miss D get like 58.5 only lol out of 95.... highest score was 68 i think lolz.. her paper so hard -__-"

AL and BEv ask me go to eat sushi buffet today but i too fat le la i dun want! lolz
And hor lately i got really bad hair days =| i need to do something to save my hair =/

lolz.. gers gers =X

Anyway I went to Dblo with YH,XN (two chio bu), J and Yandao lol..
We cham liao everytime i say dun go club le but everytime you see me blog i blog about go clubbing X_______________x

We wanted to go Thawu.. but a bit risky cos the crowd there a lot of Malays? Dun really mind but somehow I think there no place to dance.. dunno why leh have that feeling lolz.YOu should have seen YH's face when she said, "free flow!" Lolz.. Priceless.. so hiong that ger =P Talk about drinking and her eyes suddenly become so big =X wahahahaa

So we end up clubbing in Dblo.. lolz It is so fun to dance with the two chio bu.. and stupid Ed lol.. did not wait for me! Hmmph. And he went Devil's le. Lol..!! yandao It is nice to dance with u too! =P you got very nice eyes! ^^

Anyway the songs were not that great on Friday I guess more to house dance music so chimz lol... but I still had a lot of fun =P


10:26 AM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

The Maid of Honor

Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLMf)

Deliberate - make decisions carefully. Is aware of and weigh Consequences. Takes time to think things through.

Gentle- Kind considerate less selfish than average. Cares about the happiness of nearby people.

Love- is subject's primary motivation.

Master- seasoned, refined, possessing perspective and thorough knowledge.

Appreciated for your kindness and envied for all your experience, you are The Maid of Honor.

Charismatic, affectionate, and terrific in relationships, you are what many guys would call a "perfect catch"--and you probably have many admirers, each wishing to capture your long-term love. You're careful, extra careful, because the last thing you want is to hurt anyone. Especially some poor boy whose only crime was liking you.

We've deduced you're fully capable of a dirty fling, but you do feel that post-coital attachment after hooking up. So, conscientious person that you are, you do your best to reserve physical affection for those you respect...so you can respect yourself.

Your biggest negative is the byproduct of your careful nature: indecision. You're just as slow rejecting someone as you are accepting them.

ALWAYS AVOID: The False Messiah, The 5-Night Stand, The Vapor Trail, The Bachelor

CONSIDER: The Gentleman, someone just like you.

Your exact opposite:

Random Brutal Sex Dreamer


11:34 PM

Oh well just found out my maths.. one 20 marks question gone.. haha dare not look at results when it is back man.

Anyway. A lot of things happened recently but i got no time to update yesterday.

Maybe it is the bad period of the year.. a lot of people seem to be breaking up? =(
That is so sad.
Especially my classmates.
I dunno what to do or advice them on... At most i try to lend them a listening ear and just be their support when they need it.

And lately everyone is just getting sick of school.. maybe it is the fact we are going to year three soon.. Or maybe it is when our results kinda sucked for this year expecially in lot of modules.. we heard different lecturers nagging to us about the same problem...

"Are you all okay a not?"
"You all didn't do very well."
"Did you all study? or did you not understand?"

All these comments were like repeated by three lecturers?
WE have only five freaking modules this term. But three of them already sucked.
One is okay maybe it is still slightly on the lighter side, but recently more and more information to squeeze into our brain le... Miss L's module.
The other module leh no need say... Basic statistics.
Even our lecturer say last batch average was a C. HA HA

Yes no wonder everything seems sucky?
Maybe I am getting DUmb.
Maybe it is the alcohol's fault?! WHatever. geesh
It is finally Wednesday LE =p..

ha ha sudeenly feel like going to club and drink and drink and forget about everything..

Ha. If life were that simple?
maybe Having a place to erase your memories is good in some way.
Maybe there would be less anger, hurt, revenges in the world?
COs people can finally put their mind at ease.

But i guess humans have grown lazy.
GOd didn't create our brain for fun.
It created us with intelligence to sort out our problems and differences.

If everything can be settled through forgetting. I guess life is pretty meaningless.
And truth is.. it sucks when people stop communicating and started to take things for granted. Why cry later and regret when you have opportunity to make things work out at first.

Maybe we should complain a little less and open our ears wider look a little further.
Relationships are something that cannot really be clearly defined and i guess we should appreciate what we have before everything is really gone.

By then it would be too late to regret what hurtful words you said or the things you wanted to do for that special someone no longer needs you around.

I know my friends are in a lot of pain right now and frankly speaking when i see how sad they are, I feel so lost for them. If only i wasn't a human at times. i dun mind being something else that can bring happiness to them. I guess I am not that angelic. But at least i COuld be a Kind witch and probably do something to make them happy.

Whatever. Guess we need to learn a lot in life. Seriously sometimes more than what we think we can take.

5:17 PM

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