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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

lol..

I feel so sick

No not sick from flu or fevers...

Just so sick of my life

maybe it's the piling up of school work

with all the projects and case presentations and reports and tests

I suddenly dun feel like living anymore..

hur whats worst there is hell every Tuesday and Friday because I got clinic on these 2 days..

I was just off the phone with my former colleague and she was so troubled by another bloody guy

yes... pretty sad why are girls always troubled over guys... he is so unworthy. frankly speaking the way he puts her down and make use of her.. is kind of saddening..

Isn't the world a sad enough place already?

geesh

I dunno I just feel like crying these days.

I dunno what's wrong with me too.

Har... my tears were about to fall out before I typed this entry.

geesh

Maybe it's call depression.

But then again depression over?

My mind is just to complicated for me to handle...

And it is frightening how my brain links things up together and put pieces before me that I wish wouldn't occur to me.

Maybe its my fats?

Ha I cannot stop snacking these days... till i have really put on weight .. I think its hideous. lol....

maybe that's making me depressed too lol..

I dunno so stop asking me why I am sad.

I AM GRUMPY.
6:42 PM

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

I know I dun feel like before and I have been eating a lot... eeee what do u call that emotional eating? =( no wonder i have grown so fat =( I got to stop this man ughrz.. feeling worst than before =(

Why isnt there a marie france to sponser me in slimming packages =~~~(

I AM GRUMPY.
4:36 AM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Oh well it has been long since I last update...

Maybe my clinic is not going on too well.. ha ha My last clinic session turned out pretty bad =( failed =~~( because I missed out something on the cornea of my 75 year old patient haix....

Oh well never mind at least I learnt something interesting =) Hope everything will improve as time pass by bah 0.o Dun want to retake another year in Optometry lol... will kill myself before I let my parents know if that happens haha -___-""

Hmm.. everything in my life is pretty much okie right now 0.o maybe except for a little fatness and clinic stress... I can still deal with it.. but somehow lately I have been.. oh well escaping into the world of maplestory.... =(

I know it is bad and it goes to show how much I dun want to face reality.....

And at times I feel so ^#@%&#%@ I really just wished I could disappear ha ha.....

Maybe I am lucky... I still have my sweet yandao to cheer me up heh! And he is pretty good at it.. 0.0

Wee.... six months into the relationship and still I feel so sweet when he is around =D ha ha It is comparable to like eating cotton candy.. =D~~ I used to stare with fascination at how the machines could churn out cotton candy as if they condensed from the surrounding air.....

Ha ha yah... I missed my childhood days... I used to have so much ice cream cones... Mac donalds.... pop corn.....weeeeeeee...... can I go back to being a kid again? X___X

Oh but then again kids wun be allowed into clubs =X that is one privilege of being a young adult =PpPPPp club club club =X

I AM GRUMPY.
7:00 PM

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Congratulations Wendy Chan, you are...




'Xia Xue' Wendy Cheng of xiaxue.blogspot.com


You are a goddess/god. You've got the looks, the brains and the body. You have such an irreverent sense of humour, people listen to you religiously and worship the ground you walk on. On the other hand you can also be straightforward, blunt and very very controversial. That has the potential to offend many people, but of course you don't care, you just shoot. In the end, people either love you or hate you. Nothing in between.



Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?



No I am nothing like that _ _ _ _ _. heh it's just unfortunate there are so many people of the same name in Singapore.

I AM GRUMPY.
7:04 PM

Clinic was pretty bad on Friday lol.. did some dumb mistake and my refraction went all hay wired =( but never mind luckily on the way to meet yandao I managed to analyse the dumb situation and finally knew why all my axis for my astig correction came out wrong =X

I just played too much maple the night before and its really bad for clinic days .. ha ha It numbed my brain entirely i guess. but I guess Miss D is actually pretty strict in marking.. HN got pretty bad results from her too and my friends who were on dispensing got like just pass as well (from Mr R)...i think PS got 4/10 for the dispensing some more bleah lol.. all the clinicians are pretty mean =X

Oh well... Luckily yandao say something funny at times and it makes me feel much better ha ha =D

We went to see his friend's concert at some ymc arts hall or something near Doby Ghaut mrt.. wow Some of the performance were cool and I think there was one piece call Feng played very nicely with flutes! =D and there was this guy who was really cool in drumming and he plays the piano melodiously too lol....

Hur while doing project today my friend related to me what happened that day in clinic..

little girl (my kid patient):" Just now that jie jie who tested my eye hen mei leh!"
PS:" Who? You mean our teacher right? ( she was talking abt Miss D)"
little ger:" No.. the one with long hair."
PS (pointing at Miss D): her is it? she is our teacher."
Little ger:" no she not pretty de. The jie jie more pretty."
Little ger's mum:" no la cannot like that say... is she not that pretty what not pretty."
Ps:"......."

yay.. even though I was pretty depressed about clinic that day at least the comment made me =D wahahahaha.... but then again her specs were already pretty old X__X

And we were talking about how lucky that Miss D had already walk off and not heard this comment otherwise I would probably have failed my clinic practise that day =X

I AM GRUMPY.
5:39 PM

Friday, June 17, 2005

New Scientist, 2 March 1996:

Conquering hero couldn’t see straight.
Arrogance may not have been the only reason that Alexander the Great went around with his nose stuck in the air. Doctors in Greece now believe that the characteristic pose of raised chin face turned to the right and neck tilting to the left as seen in most statues of the emperor - including those crafted by his personal sculptor Lysippos - may have been caused by a rare eye disorder.

Art historians have previously suggested that his posture had more to do with aspects of Alexander's personality - his «pride of youth» - rather than his true physical appearance. But in The Lancet (April, 1996) John Lascaratos and Alexander Damanakis from Athens University say he may have suffered from a rare paralysis in one of the muscles around his left eye, a condition known as Brown’s syndrome. In order to see straight, Alexander would have had to hold his head in exactly this position.

Brown’s syndrome can be inherited, or it can result from trauma. In this case, it is likely to have been caused by a wound sustained in battle. Alexander is known to have temporarily lost his sight at least once in combat. Brown’s syndrome is «as rare as hen’s teeth» says an ophthalmologist at London’s Western Eye Hospital.


heh this is cool =X

I AM GRUMPY.
5:35 AM

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

hmmm.. I need to be in control lol... =( especially my diet realised I really have been growing sideways =/ Urghz....

Maybe it's clinic it's been kinda stressing me out and I get into the I-am-not-hungry-but-I-gotta-eat mode again =( This is so depressing.. I wish i was like my lecturer D.. She lose appetite when she gets stress man... so good haha

Okay I should stop finding excuses with myself and blame stress for making me fat.. maybe it's time to consider cutting down on all those sickening bread yah.. comfort food they say carbohydrates are comfort food because they stimulate production of serotonin..

heh I still feel kinda bad for getting such a low grade for my second patient in clinic =( especially when my sis was like! Why so low? bleah =\ no encouragement... but I still want to be an optometrist and help people check their eyes =(

Hmm as I was saying I should control my food intake =\ maybe I should ask myself this question everytime I about to grab something to eat. Am I really hungry or am I eating for the sake of eating because I feel stress or emotionally unwell lol X__x

I AM GRUMPY.
7:40 AM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

"Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, it is the realization of how much you already have." When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

"True love knows no fear. If you believe in something beautiful, then it is always worth the risk. For only those who are brave enough to risk getting hurt are the only ones who find their true destiny. Those who are afraid of what love brings never find it, and only those who are not afraid of getting hurt are the ones who keep it."



Don't you find it meaningful..

I shall keep this phrases embeded deep in my heart =D

I AM GRUMPY.
7:07 PM

It's been six months =X

Find it hard to believe time passes so quickly but it's true =P

Went out for a short celebration and meet up on Friday =P

My yandao is so cute!! He bought me something 0.o that he liked heh coincidentally I was thinking of buying the same item he bought for me X__x




It was the black eye peas latest CD.. The song don't phunk with my heart is so cool =X I keep replaying that song =P

We had a sushi fest again >.<
FAT~!!!

Scallops side X__X




Very yummy not sure what it is though 0.o




and Some of my dear's confirm-will-order sushi




and we caught the best horror movie since.... a long time i guess =P Premonition it's definitely worth the $9.50 go watch it and get ready to scream =P

After slogging away to get signatures for certain procedures in school... went to meet my dear for a gathering with his clan mates 0.0

Not very sure which game was it I think star craft or something... something before war craft X___x

There was a tall guy.. a guy in blue with his gf two more guys and Jeff..
ha ha maybe they were not so into intros so I did not really get to know their names =X

We went to ate the yummy ramen at China square.. which in my view is definitely better than Ajisen =X moreover the soup was delicious =D and you can even choose the degree of hotness of the noddle indicated by the amount of chilli grade u want it to be done...

My dear's yummy chicken ramen




I had some mushroom ramen which was pretty yummy too =P was kinda in love with the soup =P

and we had a yoghurt desert =P so yummy =D




heh time was getting late and we were pretty poor so we decided to go home after eating and hearing some entertaining stories by Jeff..

Heh yandao *hugs* I hope u can feel what i feel =D okie dun want to sound too mushy =P I will leave my mushiness when i talk to him lol.....

I AM GRUMPY.
2:19 PM

Friday, June 10, 2005

Heh I am going to make use of my blog to post an ad for my friends here =P

Anyone of you interested in checking your eyes? +p I can do a free eye check up for you and my slots are on Tuesday from 10am to 1pm and on Friday 2pm to 5pm.. You can also come to Singapore Polytechnic for Contact lens fitting.. the contact lens of course must pay if u wanna buy la lol....

=P thanks ah anyone interested msg me on my hp okie =PPPpPPp

I AM GRUMPY.
3:17 PM

I think i am emotionally not very stable lol... that's why i go on food binges -___-" that's why I grow so fat. ARGHZ....

Anyway G is late again haha okie I am going to school le

I AM GRUMPY.
9:25 AM

Monday, June 06, 2005

On staurday, finally felt better after doing something silly on Friday night.. went to cut my hair myself LOL....

Oh well I think it looks better now at least no more long messy dangling hair.. oh well =\ okie okie It's still messy but at least its a bit neater and shorter

Met up with yandao and he decided to treat me to something sinful 0.0

PIZZA.......

yeap it's very sinful haha but still pizza is always hard to resist =D

Here's a nice picture of the hawaiian pizza for you to drool at =PppP



And we ordered some fish rings as well quite funky taste 0.0




Heh was such a slacky Saturday =D

And Sunday I headed over to Alexander hospital for the special olympic screening.
it's really very meaningful. They do this like every year to screen mentally challenged special people who take part in games... and it's call opening eyes =)

I was in charge of visual acuity taking and doing cover test but due to my own poor eyesight lol.. Lanette offered to take the VA instead and let me do the color vision and Stereopsis test.

It was very meaningful especially a few of them were pretty cute =P I was like playing games with them when I did the stereopsis test on them.

And Pei Shan and me managed to get a few handphone numbers with Gwen's help for our Third year project =)

Overall I kinda enjoyed myself .. heh not forgetting the nice cookie and snacks we had there ^^

By the way i am playing maplesea right now..

and look at this 0.0

my mage and Yandao's warrior =D




haha maple addict -__-"




=)

I AM GRUMPY.
3:46 PM

Friday, June 03, 2005

I always feel better when night time has arrived...

Maybe it's the darkness I just somehow feel safe in it 0.o

A nocturnal Wendy =P

I AM GRUMPY.
8:30 PM

Lol.. this is bad.. I feel so I dun know... Hate myself right now

=/

I am supposed to meet yandao but I told him I did not want to meet today..
No it's not that I dun want to meet him... I just dun feel in the mood?

I dun really know how to explain.. maybe it's really my fats I think I have grown into a dinosaur and instead of doing anything about it I am here complaining as usual in my blog..

yah that's why I am starting to hate myself.

and I think I am starting to look terrible in my clothes.

ha ha fat ger..

X___X

I AM GRUMPY.
5:46 PM




yeap.. I feel like killing all my lecturers so I dun have any more stress =D

I AM GRUMPY.
9:17 AM

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Destiny number : 2

Your important attributes can be descibed in three words -Sensitivity, tact and diplomacy.You have been observed to be an excellent speaker and negotiator.You employ your skills to resolve conflicts and to foster peace. You speak with so much feeling ,tact and beauty that even the adversary has to acknowledge it.

However your excessive sensitivity is your main drawback.Sometimes you
tend to give too much weightage to what others have to say about you.This is an indication of your low self esteem. Basically your life is of two types : the public and private - each different from the other. You are quite irresponsible and careless in personal matters but dutiful in public matters.

You have a great number of friends from all sections of the society. This is because of your calming and peaceful nature.You are well known for your sense of humour among your friends.Your special ability to feel and behave like children with children and grown-up with the grown-ups makes you a much sought after personality.

Your special healing capabilities and the genuine care and concern for you have for people can help you make a successful career in medical treatment, acupuncture, physical therapy, animal breeding and counseling.

Check out yr destiny number


EXPRESSION NUMBER : 4

You are the brick and mortar of any enterprise. You are an organis
er and administrator.Your approach to life and to problems is methodical and systematic. You are the catalyst which turns dreams into reality. You have a highly developed sense of structure. As a result, you are reliable and responsible.

You have a tendency to become too narrowly focused. You put your nose to the grindstone and have a propensity to be a workaholic.You are driven by a contempt for all that is unstable, insecure, and unpredictable.This can hamper your progress and cause you much frustration, shutting you out from possible shortcuts and creative solutions.

In relationships, you tend to be somewhat moralistic. You are extremely honest and sincere. You have integrity and trustworthiness.You are a remarkably good parent, and love to be involved with children.You are very conscious of the balance between income and expenditures. You can limit your expenditures; saving money is important to you.

Many accountants, bookkeepers, government officials, managers, and lawyers are born under the 4 Expression.You have great stamina and can work conscientiously and persistently toward your goals. This eventually brings you success and standing in your community.However you need to learn to take certain things lightly. Classical music and opera are particularly appealing and inspiring for you.

You should endeavour to carry out your plans and aims on all days that fall under your own numbers,such as the 4th,13th,or 22nd of any month.
Your lucky colours are half - shades of grey,blue.

I AM GRUMPY.
9:18 PM

Nooooo...

I dun feel any better...

There are so many things to be done and i dunno how to get started...

I need to lose weight but I keep eating urghz. I am going to turn into dinosaur soon.

I am so confuseed about everything.. haiz I am going to turn into the depressed robot soon enough...




Anyway caught the Hitchiker's guide to Galaxy on Wednesday at CCK with yandao.. the show was pretty funny..=P

But there are just so many things going on in my head now I feel like cutting my brain out haiz... WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY............

I AM GRUMPY.
8:14 PM





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