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Sunday, July 31, 2005

heh heh so it's pretty late now... but i still feeling a bit awake.. =D

I just got home not too long ago.. heh I finally went to B and L roadshow today =P
My senior E was pretty okay with me.. He asked me a lot of questions at first and then we started to loosen up a little so he wasn't that evil towards me. =P

but one thing abt him -.- he keep wanting to take pictures of me -.-"" oh my god sound so sicko... but i think he is always taking pictures of gers -.- bleah he's mad. I had to cover my face with the b and L brochures.. but then evil and cunning pple like him i think he managed to get candid shots of me while i did not notice -.- ewwwwwww.

and then there were a three pretty gers working with me who all look very lianish.. lol maybe it was cos of the dyed hair and and fierce look they had... but they were quite nice pple in general and one ger was small and cute =D

Then there was T who made another comment. 0.o that the upper half of my face looks like jamie yeo?.. so maybe he needs an eye check too haha .. well i am the uglier and fatter version then X___x...

anyway manage to teach quite a number of first time contact lens wearers how to wear lenses and did some promoting... even though i was not paid any commission haha never mind la.. you cannot expect me to sit there like a mute and dun reccommend any lenses to the customers yah?

and hmm.. seriously it was pretty fun and the guys were pretty friendly too =D the E S shop guy also came chat with me and we were talking abt... i forget just stuff haha....

Oh and i saw M from J and J .. haha whoops actually did not want him to notice me since i change company le.. i used to work there .. but for like 2 days only lol... and oh well they stopped roadshows a while so i stopped working there...

he was like looking in my direction and i think he realised i look familiar so i just smile back.. lol dunno will he be cursing me a not =X.. but nvm la J and J things so complicated that time i do two days i still dunno what i am promoting haha even the form they fill in is so complicated...

so wow the promoters earn pretty much a lot in a day if i am not wrong they hit like 174 bucks today each person 0.0"" while E and me only get ard 100?? lol poor optoms..

hmmm.. went back home with my very nice daddy!! waiting me and my sis at CCK mrt heh heh so we had a quick ride home... weeeeeeeee.....

and went home and start to maple a bit... oh well yandao says i think too much at times.. heh but it's better if i be a considerate gf then a unresonable gf right =X

oh well but then agin if i really think too much at times.. lol yandao i permit u to kok my head so i stop thinking that far away.. lol

okie sleep well pple =P I hope i get sweet dreams tonight =D

12:50 AM

Friday, July 29, 2005

You are sexy, powerful, and bold.
You're full of passion and energy...
Sometimes this passion has a dark side.

You feel most alive when you're seducing someone.
You never fail to get someone's attention.
Quick minded, you're also quick to lose your temper!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

hwa hwa i am probably too fat to be anything except blob right now -.-

You are dependable, popular, and observant.
Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness.
In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do.

You are unique, creative, and expressive.
You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while.
And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

It was the second most appealing picture to me...

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise.
Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself.
You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books.

You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life.
You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world.
A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

This is the third.. and i felt some of the things mention in all three were pretty true.. maybe it's a coincidence.

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:

You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.

At Your Lowest:

You feel in a slump and lack creativity.

In Love:

You tend to be many people's ideal partner.

How You're Attractive:

You make people feel confident and accepted.

Your Eternal Question:

"What Impression Am I Giving?"
What's Your Power Color?

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.

You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.

You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.

You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.
How Do You Live Your Life?

5:26 PM

Thursday, July 28, 2005

It's funny how when u feel sad u cannot find anyone to confide in..

and so what do u end up doing?


That's really pathetic I feel it too..

I dun know why am i in such a pathetic state nowdays..

When my friends feel sad I always lend them my listening ear..

But how come when i am sad there is just no one ard?

maybe I dun want to burden anyone with my sadness and my wails.

After all I am suppose to be strong.

after all I went through so many things..

Maybe my heart should be numbed to the extent of feeling sad as common as how my heart beats..

But somehow I just cannot let sadness get away that easily.. and I end up feeling pretty down.

What's wrong?

I really dun know.

I am so used to being the one to listen to pple, that somehow when i have trouble I really dunno who to turn to

maybe i suck in everything.

yah good I am wallowing in self pity as if that's going to help anything.


10:58 PM

Monday, July 25, 2005


11:15 PM

There are so many absurb things going on through my head now.. oh well it's the term break.. my brain deserves some form of relaxation I guess from all the serious work..

phew I did not tell you .. yesterday was really hectic.. had to go back to school to do my year three project and everything ended like seven plus.. gosh.. was it exhausting... =( and my Sunday just flew away like that...

I forced yandao ( whahahaa =X) to eat dinner with me and treated him to sinful mac Donalds!! =\ oh man... fats.

On the way home i suddenly got quite depressed.. maybe too many things were like left hanging and haiz my term break is so packed.. I just want to lie on bed and rot and not think about anything at all >.<

Oh i guess i still need some new resolution like.. ban myself from eating bread? i think it's making me grow sideways...

Today is a very good Monday...

I completely like slept more than ten hours.. I feel so at peace within me..yup i dun feel cranky like yesterday....

It's sometimes weird when u like dun communicate with anyone throughout the day...
It makes you think more than ever dun you think so...

and weird thoughts start to creep in... seriously i think Zhen zi was in my dream just now... not even sure why but she was chasing after me.. =/ bleah bad dream..

6:58 PM

Sunday, July 24, 2005


Finally went clubbing =D
MoMo club heh and coincidentally Bev wanted to go too.. so I asked her about it and she came with her friend as well....

So I went with Yandao, Pat and his friends...

The place is quite cool.. except I cannot figure out why people wanted to queue instead of entering from the other entrance where there was no queue 0.0""

The songs were so so ... the nice RnB songs lasted for less than an hr =\ Oh well...

And after clubbing we went to eat nice porridge!!~ The pi dan zhou was really good X___x I grew so fat... and my calories from dancing were replaced by the porridge =(

And I think Pat hates me for stealing yandao away from him =( He scalded my third finger with the porridge =\.. too bad =D I have a sweet yandao =P

Hope Pat can get over this fact soon and stop planning to injure me through "accidents" . =X

2:59 AM

Monday, July 18, 2005

Ahem... and so i grew fatter... bleah I could not bear to look at the photos I took with yandao on his graduation day =( all I saw was a fatter me...

And coincidentally when i went to jog with yandao on Sunday .. we saw this old man from china making figurines from dough and sweet yandao dedcided to buy me a pig to remind me of my own fatness..


LOL... heh just kidding la he isn't that mean.. he thought that it would be cute to buy me something to accompany me home since he was guilty of not sending me home. =X LOLOLOLOL heh no la just kidding =) He's sweet that's all~!!

Hmm geesh I wonder how people can grow thinner in times of stress =Geesh maybe YH can give me a hint or two how come she's so skinny >.< Envy... I wonder what's the secret to being thin like her? dun eat at all ^^??

When will I be anorexic?? =D

My god.... Maybe in next life -.-"

It's hell day tomolo again =/

hey by the way if u are reading this and you buy contact lens..Charmel.. Irene... come buy lenses from my school if possible okie?? It's the same price as outside =/ I need to have a quota to reach so hopefully u can come down on a Tuesday from 930am to 130 pm or Friday from 130pm to 530 pm .. of course it only takes an hr or so, so hopefully those of you wearing contact lense can consider coming to my school to do an eye check? 0.o?

PLEASE.... X___x

6:58 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Ok so... I am pretty hmm in ISOLATION MOOD?? lol... heh dunno just dun really want to face life these days omg... must be school.. lol making me feel so sian again hur....

I hibernated myself so much my maple mage is already level 40 -.-""

When I am making money 0.0""

I was stalking VOidy =D

Was going to somewhere to visit some cute kittys =D

WAs falling asleep from all the walking....

and... oh well.. fell asleep 0.o""

Went to the event =D Ola Ola~!!

Oh my god... hope yandao feels better soon... =( The evil dentist =/ shan't elaborate further haiz.. poor thing hope his teeth will be okay..

10:41 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Heh.. It's Sunday... it's seven months le yandao =PpPP

Though we did not do anything today.. serious it was just rotting at home and mapling... I just want to say this seven months has been great..


never knew there was someone who could care for me like you do...


U look so smart in your graduation gown yesterday =D

And yr eyes are still as cute as ever~!!

And you are so nice to me!!

You knew i grew fat but keep comforting me I was still alright! >.<


It's hard to tell you how much i feel for you =D and it cannot be described by words itself....

Thanks for teaching me so many things =D you put so much fun in my life.... and opened my eyes to a whole new world.. =D

I dun think I am exaggerating...

Clubs.. pool....games... wow =X and he stil could get such good results for his exams previously =X


8:03 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Oh man you all gotta see this .. it's SO ADORABLE =D


2:03 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005


oh well today clinic was so so... but haiz I need to improve a lot on my retinoscopy SERIOUS.. I am not going to let teacher reduce marks on me because of it.. HMMPH I am sure I can do a good retinoscopy on patients HMMPH...

Guess today wasn't everyone's day somehow patients today appearing in clinic all had some weird problems....

there is still so many things going on in my mind.... I wonder when will all the thinking stop.... ha ha my head is being tortured unwillingly...

I dunno worries never seem to stop at times I hope everything goes well =/

Luckily yandao was here to accompany me after school and we went to release stress at the arcade in Clementi...he treated me eat yummy prata =D

heh I am a lucky girl... yah envy me pple LOL.....

oh well.. but then i still got a lot of problems running through my head...

1) will i made it through my yr three...
2) dunno will i survive in the workforce....
3) i am SO FAT geesh =(
4) my hair is getting messier =(
5) how abt my sis?? =~((
6) my dad and his health -__-"""
7) my mum's ..... haiz -_______-"

and bring my Eeyoree and find yandao go Paris...

yah la I am dreaming.. cannot meh?


11:59 PM

reason of love? is there?

Lady : Why do you like me, why do you
love me, dear?

Man :I don't know, need there be a reason to love

Lady :If you can't even tell me the reason, how can
you convince me that you love me?

Man :I may not know the reason, but I can prove
that I love you.

Lady : Prove it to me? I don't want proof! If my
friend's boyfriend can tell her the reason why he
loves her, why can't you tell me?

Man :Ok Ok! I love you...

- because your voice is sweet

- because you are caring

- because you are loving

- because you are thoughtful

- because of your smile

- because of your every movement

The lady felt very satisfied with the man's answer.

Unfortunately, a few days later, the lady met with
an accident and had gone into a coma. The guy
then placed a letter by her side, which said:


It is because of your sweet voice that I love you...

Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.

It is because of your care and concern for me that
I love you..

Now that you cannot show them, therefore I
cannot love you.

It is because of your smile,

Now that you cannot smile, therefore I cannot love

It is because of your every movement that I love

Now can you move?

No, therefore I cannot love you...

If love needs a reason, like now, there is no
reason for me to love you anymore.

Does love need a reason?


Therefore, I still love you.

" Sometimes the best and the most beautiful
things in the world cannot be seen, cannot be
touched, but can be felt in the heart "

o.0 heh saw this in a bulletin board ... so sweet lol..

10:41 AM

Monday, July 04, 2005

sneeze.. and sneeze and sneeze...


coincidentally it was a youth day holiday 0.0"""

2:20 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

I haven been talking much about what is happening in my life.. but that doesn't mean nothing much happened...

In fact there were quite a few things going on in my life and I haven mention about them here yet...guess when I feel moody I just dun feel like mentioning anything...

Heh... I went to caught two movies recently... Initial D and War of the Worlds...
Both were not that bad but I had expected a better story line for Initial D.. Oh well I guess the number of suave guys in the show was able to make up for the lack of plot...not in my idea.. >.< but look at the overwhelming response the show had in just a few weeks of opening..

Hmm.. guess what.. my younger cousin of 20 years old is getting married this August.. heh pretty soon... and I was pretty surprised hearing the news though I knew about her bf for sometime le.. just did not knew she would get married so soon =) Guess it's a good thing yah.. heh we are all growing up >.< I dunno is it good or bad... somehow I always miss the good old days....

Hmm.. and today was pretty cool.. I went to an old folks home with my lecturer Miss M.. heh and three others from the next class along with HN and AL.. =D

I was pretty worried what we are going to do there when we arrive but happens to be there were games we could play with the old folks and there was even a mahjong set there!! :D heh they play poker cards too!!

AL and me were busy playing pins and ball with two very sweet old ladies and afterwards we went ard the home singing songs with the rest of the volunteers.. though we could not sing most of the songs well.. I pretty enjoyed myself..

I even fed an uncle his dinner =PpPpP

Hmm.. Just one thing lol... my teochew sucks man... Wish I could have learnt it well when I was younger so I could communicate better with the old folks =
ah oh well clinic went pretty well on Friday.. =\ hope everything remains good >.< I hate it when i get demoralised in clinic C___C..

and *ahem*.. Patrick about that plan.. LOL have you carried it out? =X

8:10 PM

Friday, July 01, 2005


I hate my fats..

everyone has been telling me I grew fat =(

why am i so like cant be bothered about anything nowdays..

urghz save me.

8:53 AM

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